Aww Man!
Ok so I was reading something from a year ago today just for the hell of it and....lol.....see I really dont pay any attention to the dates anymore.....I really dont know why but needless to say I had no idea that today was the 15th. So yea....when I realized what the date was.....lol....all I could say was, "aww man!" Not in a bad way.....I was just surprised because I haven't even thought of this date in a year. So last year it was one of those...."damn" days and this year......well....I dont feel anything. Which is good right? Right. So, I was hoping this year I would have something profound to say.....but I don't so here's the deal.
Who would have thought.....3 years......crazy huh? Well, not that it doesn't mean anything to me but I have no reason to hang on to this day anymore. I have another date that I want to hang on to.....I have another person and to be honest....I wouldn't want anyone else besides her. I think it's great that we were able to move on and push everything aside and become friends. Look at us now....you're like my lil sister. I'm glad that you're happy. Although, I'm not really keen on the person you're happy with but that's your choice. You'll find out sooner or later and I can only hope that you could still come to me for advice and comfort. I still love you.....but not in that way. You have that special love.....ya know.....the love I have for Vanessa and Damaris. I guess what I'm trying to say is that....it's ok. Everything is ok. I love Nikki so much that it hurts to breathe sometimes. She means the world to me and I wouldnt give her up for anything or anyone in this world......even you. You have what you want....and I most certainly have what I want. You're my friend. One of my best friends.....that's where we are and that's were I want us to be. Nowhere else.
Who would have thought.....3 years......crazy huh? Well, not that it doesn't mean anything to me but I have no reason to hang on to this day anymore. I have another date that I want to hang on to.....I have another person and to be honest....I wouldn't want anyone else besides her. I think it's great that we were able to move on and push everything aside and become friends. Look at us now....you're like my lil sister. I'm glad that you're happy. Although, I'm not really keen on the person you're happy with but that's your choice. You'll find out sooner or later and I can only hope that you could still come to me for advice and comfort. I still love you.....but not in that way. You have that special love.....ya know.....the love I have for Vanessa and Damaris. I guess what I'm trying to say is that....it's ok. Everything is ok. I love Nikki so much that it hurts to breathe sometimes. She means the world to me and I wouldnt give her up for anything or anyone in this world......even you. You have what you want....and I most certainly have what I want. You're my friend. One of my best friends.....that's where we are and that's were I want us to be. Nowhere else.