Needless to say...
last night was fucking insanity! Don't really want to go into details about why, but lets just say I thought I was watching one of those cky videos and it fully reinforced my thoughts on men at the moment. Besides all that I was having a lot of realizations and it kind of sucks when you realize the place that your at in life cannot take you any further. I've slowed down in the emotional growth department. I always like to feel as if Im moving forward and Im not right now. Im not too sure on how to change that, but Im working on it.
Im so glad I freaked out the other day. Its hard to say why, but I definitely needed it. It brought me to a place of putting the past behind me. I've been dwelling in it for so long and now I dont need to anymore. I truly felt, happy? No. Depressed? No. I would have to say, released. Which I guess in a way makes me a little of both. Moving on is a weird process. I never had to do it before. I've always been the person on the other end of the spectrum. I dont necessarily believe in karma as an actual force, but they are right, karma's a bitch.
So today was a definite change from the norm. It was my nephews birthday. We went to Boomers where I proceeded to kick my dads ass at air hockey. After that we went to applebee's and surprisingly I had a good dinner. Im normally very dissatisfied after eating there. Our waiter was a little cutie, so that was a bonus. I think he kept giving me the eye, but who knows he might have just been workin' me for the tip. He gave me extra shrimp and if I remember correctly I think thats restaurant code for I have the hots for you, meet me in the meat locker. Heehee, just kidding.
Im so glad I freaked out the other day. Its hard to say why, but I definitely needed it. It brought me to a place of putting the past behind me. I've been dwelling in it for so long and now I dont need to anymore. I truly felt, happy? No. Depressed? No. I would have to say, released. Which I guess in a way makes me a little of both. Moving on is a weird process. I never had to do it before. I've always been the person on the other end of the spectrum. I dont necessarily believe in karma as an actual force, but they are right, karma's a bitch.
So today was a definite change from the norm. It was my nephews birthday. We went to Boomers where I proceeded to kick my dads ass at air hockey. After that we went to applebee's and surprisingly I had a good dinner. Im normally very dissatisfied after eating there. Our waiter was a little cutie, so that was a bonus. I think he kept giving me the eye, but who knows he might have just been workin' me for the tip. He gave me extra shrimp and if I remember correctly I think thats restaurant code for I have the hots for you, meet me in the meat locker. Heehee, just kidding.