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Today was the last day of a rough week at work. There have been way too many rough days at work lately, and I'm getting to the point where I'm not sure I can do this job anymore. When my predecessor left the job she left us for, my boss made a comment about how she realized he wasn't a terrible slave driving boss after all. This comes to mind as I think, no, but you're still a terrible boss - a nice guy, but a terrible boss. I've been told to be more direct, so when I call him out on something, I get a "well I'll own some of it." When we point out a problem, he dismisses it. He changes things but doesn't communicate it to everyone that it affects. And then he waits until the last minute of a project to point out there's a problem because the team working on the project didn't know about the change.
But financially, I don't know that I can just leave this job. I honestly looked at my desk as I was closing up the office today and thought, "I could just clear this out..." And I almost did. And part of me would have been so relieved to do it. And then reality would hit ... and I'd have to figure out how to pay the bills.
Once upon a time I really loved this job. I enjoyed going to work and being a part of this company.
But that fairy tale is over.
Now it's just a job.
And the stresses are building.
But financially, I don't know that I can just leave this job. I honestly looked at my desk as I was closing up the office today and thought, "I could just clear this out..." And I almost did. And part of me would have been so relieved to do it. And then reality would hit ... and I'd have to figure out how to pay the bills.
Once upon a time I really loved this job. I enjoyed going to work and being a part of this company.
But that fairy tale is over.
Now it's just a job.
And the stresses are building.