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It may not seem like it, seeing as how I so often come here to post the rants and get them out of my head, but I really try to not be a bitter person most of the time. But sometimes with some people it's so, so difficult. I can count them on one hand, but those few people have this power to darken me.
Like just now. I had started typing up a story about one of those people. No, I had typed up a story about one of those people. And I got to the end, but didn't feel any better. The bitterness still hung like a cloud around my head. So I deleted it.
But I'm trying desperately - as I have for nearly two decades with some of these people - to move past it and let it go. But somehow, they keep drifting back into my consciousness through common connections (two are family so there's really no way to sever completely).
Lately, I've been too angry too often. I'm trying to bring things back into balance. But I'm having a hard time figuring out how to really do that. I've taken a few effective steps but it's just not enough yet.
Like just now. I had started typing up a story about one of those people. No, I had typed up a story about one of those people. And I got to the end, but didn't feel any better. The bitterness still hung like a cloud around my head. So I deleted it.
But I'm trying desperately - as I have for nearly two decades with some of these people - to move past it and let it go. But somehow, they keep drifting back into my consciousness through common connections (two are family so there's really no way to sever completely).
Lately, I've been too angry too often. I'm trying to bring things back into balance. But I'm having a hard time figuring out how to really do that. I've taken a few effective steps but it's just not enough yet.