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The irritation is building up.
All these emotions i get..the guilt trips from my parents..its hard to handle. I kno that ive messed up..in more way than one..starting with March 19. That day is the day my parents lost all trust in me. Ive worked it back since then..then what do i do? fuck things up again by almost gettin arrested. My summer is fucked and i hate it. Im going thru withdrawls..even tho no1 has called me to hang out anyway..nothing too surprising. Jenn is going with Sam to her dads..Crystal is in NC..and well..thats about all i choose to hang out with. I guess i need to stop being too picky..*ponders* maybe thats why some people think im a stuck up bitch...
Recital is Friday. We are being crammed with so much fuckin work. Tap production..two finales..way too much to deal with. We are so far behind..its as if we will never get it done. I have tech rehearsal tomorrow nite..which is the most strenuous nite of them all. Followed my dress rehearsal thursday..opening and closing nite. Then what? nothing..one week after that then im off to SC to party hard and meet tons of hott guys. Im counting down..the wait is unbearable...
Sappy songs..sappy love songs at that..get me so down. I wonder...will i ever meet the perfect guy? shit..will i ever meet a guy in the first place? Cody..sweet guy..rite when i get where i want with him..i loose everything..a kiss..a kiss means a thousands words to me..specially from him..its normally not like that..its weird..i just want to talk to him...
All these emotions i get..the guilt trips from my parents..its hard to handle. I kno that ive messed up..in more way than one..starting with March 19. That day is the day my parents lost all trust in me. Ive worked it back since then..then what do i do? fuck things up again by almost gettin arrested. My summer is fucked and i hate it. Im going thru withdrawls..even tho no1 has called me to hang out anyway..nothing too surprising. Jenn is going with Sam to her dads..Crystal is in NC..and well..thats about all i choose to hang out with. I guess i need to stop being too picky..*ponders* maybe thats why some people think im a stuck up bitch...
Recital is Friday. We are being crammed with so much fuckin work. Tap production..two finales..way too much to deal with. We are so far behind..its as if we will never get it done. I have tech rehearsal tomorrow nite..which is the most strenuous nite of them all. Followed my dress rehearsal thursday..opening and closing nite. Then what? nothing..one week after that then im off to SC to party hard and meet tons of hott guys. Im counting down..the wait is unbearable...
Sappy songs..sappy love songs at that..get me so down. I wonder...will i ever meet the perfect guy? shit..will i ever meet a guy in the first place? Cody..sweet guy..rite when i get where i want with him..i loose everything..a kiss..a kiss means a thousands words to me..specially from him..its normally not like that..its weird..i just want to talk to him...