I can add a teddybear and friends to my emptiness inside
My life is going pretty well. I still have an emptiness inside; one that is not being filled with unhealthy behaviours (3 month of abstaining from a host of things including but not limited to: numbing anonymous sex, binge eating, alcohol, obsessive computer gaming, over-helpfulness).
Instead of (metaphorically) looking down into the hole within, I've got into the hole with a teddy bear, a duvet and some tea. Sometimes I have friends to visit, sometimes I have songs to sing. The hole still has a lot of emptiness, but I know I can at least partly fill it with nice things. I got this idea from http://attaching.wordpress.com/ somewhere (can't find the post). I don't agree with some of his opinions on political/religious stuff, but he has a lot to say about healing the wounds of the past. (Not updated in months.)
I often have periods where I feel intensely lonely, have that emptiness inside feel so big. I know that this can be temporary though.
I am learning how to feel that I am enough. Partly through an intense and medium-term behavioural therapy for people with BPD, partly through all the other positive things I do for myself.
It's ok to feel. This will pass. I can take action (optionally including having a sit down and a cup of tea).
Instead of (metaphorically) looking down into the hole within, I've got into the hole with a teddy bear, a duvet and some tea. Sometimes I have friends to visit, sometimes I have songs to sing. The hole still has a lot of emptiness, but I know I can at least partly fill it with nice things. I got this idea from http://attaching.wordpress.com/ somewhere (can't find the post). I don't agree with some of his opinions on political/religious stuff, but he has a lot to say about healing the wounds of the past. (Not updated in months.)
I often have periods where I feel intensely lonely, have that emptiness inside feel so big. I know that this can be temporary though.
I am learning how to feel that I am enough. Partly through an intense and medium-term behavioural therapy for people with BPD, partly through all the other positive things I do for myself.
It's ok to feel. This will pass. I can take action (optionally including having a sit down and a cup of tea).