Shiny happy people holding hands
I'm going to a goth night tonight. I want to not feel sh*t when I'm there. I also want to not drink, so I have to come up with some psychological tools to dampen my insecurity.
* I will be going with a hot person who thinks I'm hot.
* Lots of people feel insecure, it's ok.
* There will be people there who I know. (Hm, but that doesn't stop me thinking 'what if I say something that makes me sound stupid, then they will hate me!')
* I have worth. I need to come up with more positive affirmations to use at the goth night. I feel a bit too sheepish to write some of the ones I usually use in my LJ.
I read somewhere that it takes 21 repetitions to get something to be a habit. (Like exercising regularly for example.) Maybe it will take 21 times of going out to unstructured social events that involve music and dancing before I feel comfortable there. Oh, and what is fun?!!
Feeling worthless a lot of the time sucks.
Oh, and I'll have to deal with the potential of people being really nasty about 'chavs'. biascut, I think I'm ready to get round to thinking of my essay 'In Defence of the Chav'. Writing essays is better than punching people.
I am not going to go to the gym today. I didn't do any exercise yesterday, but I am *not* going to give myself a hard time about that. I am going to pick up my new trainers and go out on a date, I can't deal with any more than that in one day.
Today I shall be gentle and loving to myself.
* I will be going with a hot person who thinks I'm hot.
* Lots of people feel insecure, it's ok.
* There will be people there who I know. (Hm, but that doesn't stop me thinking 'what if I say something that makes me sound stupid, then they will hate me!')
* I have worth. I need to come up with more positive affirmations to use at the goth night. I feel a bit too sheepish to write some of the ones I usually use in my LJ.
I read somewhere that it takes 21 repetitions to get something to be a habit. (Like exercising regularly for example.) Maybe it will take 21 times of going out to unstructured social events that involve music and dancing before I feel comfortable there. Oh, and what is fun?!!
Feeling worthless a lot of the time sucks.
Oh, and I'll have to deal with the potential of people being really nasty about 'chavs'. biascut, I think I'm ready to get round to thinking of my essay 'In Defence of the Chav'. Writing essays is better than punching people.
I am not going to go to the gym today. I didn't do any exercise yesterday, but I am *not* going to give myself a hard time about that. I am going to pick up my new trainers and go out on a date, I can't deal with any more than that in one day.
Today I shall be gentle and loving to myself.