Thoughts, actions, intentions
I want compliments. Tell me what you like about me. It could be my looks, writing style, ability to cope with my problems, whatever... just lay on the compliments. If you can't think of anything just don't comment! Simple. (I can't promise to reciprocate.)
I went on a (first) date today in Cambridge. I got the express train there, I really liked the journey. I saw rabbits on the way back! Bunny wabbits! I am still getting used to dating. I didn't do it when I was in my teens or most of my twenties: I used to randomly shag people and either have relationships with them or not. Now is different. Hm. Less of the leaping into bed with strangers nowadays.
I spend a lot of time online in the day. I think I want to try and minimise that. If I give myself an hour of Internet time in the morning and only get back to it in the evening/late afternoon, I think I'll get more done (and use up less electricity). Going out to Regent's Park yesterday reminded me that there is more to life than sitting in front of a screen. If I need to use the Internet in the day I will, but I will try and limit myself to an hour at a time. We'll see how long that lasts! I can always do twitter updates with my mobile phone (I still have an awful lot of credit on it).
Continuing break-up stuff: I'm still in love with my ex-wife. It's been well over a year since we broke up, and I was the one to initiate the break-up... but I have reminders of her all the time and bam. A lot of it is a lack of acceptance that I couldn't cope with a change in our relationship. I keep regretting having too much headstuff to be able to cope with a change from the primary/secondary shape that our relationship was in relation to others, and wishing that I could have coped with her moving out. But I couldn't cope with that. I would like to come up with something definite that I can turn into an acceptance-related affirmation specific to this matter. I can't think of something to sum it up in one sentence though.
-- I had to let my relationship go because it wasn't working for me
-- There are times when I have to lose things to keep my sanity
-- I accept that I needed to let my relationship with X go
Dunno. Also, I think I need to do some thinking about her for a short time every day so I'm not surprised when something reminds me of her. I did this to manage the grief at losing my daughter to adoption; it's not the same grief, but it's grief nevertheless. It really helped with the adoption grief.
I went on a (first) date today in Cambridge. I got the express train there, I really liked the journey. I saw rabbits on the way back! Bunny wabbits! I am still getting used to dating. I didn't do it when I was in my teens or most of my twenties: I used to randomly shag people and either have relationships with them or not. Now is different. Hm. Less of the leaping into bed with strangers nowadays.
I spend a lot of time online in the day. I think I want to try and minimise that. If I give myself an hour of Internet time in the morning and only get back to it in the evening/late afternoon, I think I'll get more done (and use up less electricity). Going out to Regent's Park yesterday reminded me that there is more to life than sitting in front of a screen. If I need to use the Internet in the day I will, but I will try and limit myself to an hour at a time. We'll see how long that lasts! I can always do twitter updates with my mobile phone (I still have an awful lot of credit on it).
Continuing break-up stuff: I'm still in love with my ex-wife. It's been well over a year since we broke up, and I was the one to initiate the break-up... but I have reminders of her all the time and bam. A lot of it is a lack of acceptance that I couldn't cope with a change in our relationship. I keep regretting having too much headstuff to be able to cope with a change from the primary/secondary shape that our relationship was in relation to others, and wishing that I could have coped with her moving out. But I couldn't cope with that. I would like to come up with something definite that I can turn into an acceptance-related affirmation specific to this matter. I can't think of something to sum it up in one sentence though.
-- I had to let my relationship go because it wasn't working for me
-- There are times when I have to lose things to keep my sanity
-- I accept that I needed to let my relationship with X go
Dunno. Also, I think I need to do some thinking about her for a short time every day so I'm not surprised when something reminds me of her. I did this to manage the grief at losing my daughter to adoption; it's not the same grief, but it's grief nevertheless. It really helped with the adoption grief.