Breakdown. Part 1
Balloons
Look good from on the ground
I fear with pins and needles around
We may fall then stumble
Upon a carousel
It could take us anywhere
When people choose words to describe me, "cool, calm, collected," are not typical in the bunch. They would use such words as, "Dramatic, Over the Top, Complicated." So when I say I am having a breakdown, its tends to not be such a big deal, but in this case, I think its my first life crisis. Lately life has seemed tiring and I don't understand. I wake up exhausted, I go to be exhausted. I am moody, bitchy and very emotional. Its a constant PERIOD.
My bills seem to never get paid, the more I work and less I go out, still no money. Marymount sent me to collections, rather than send me an actual bill. Now I am worried I cant be put on a lease with carla. Everyone is enjoying their youth and life and I am home! I want to get out of my dead end job, my attitude is that I am depressed and I am depressed that out of everyone that I know...I am not in school? what the fuck is that? I LOVE SCHOOL, I love writing, I love the late night essays and the pain a midterm brings! I cant seem to get a loan to pay off my debt to go back and my grandparents are holding tight, maybe they can take it with them.
No matter how much I try to distract myself, it seems to always be lingering, AHHHHHHHH. I need to get back to school and I need to do something about it
but what?
SERIOUS CRISIS
Look good from on the ground
I fear with pins and needles around
We may fall then stumble
Upon a carousel
It could take us anywhere
When people choose words to describe me, "cool, calm, collected," are not typical in the bunch. They would use such words as, "Dramatic, Over the Top, Complicated." So when I say I am having a breakdown, its tends to not be such a big deal, but in this case, I think its my first life crisis. Lately life has seemed tiring and I don't understand. I wake up exhausted, I go to be exhausted. I am moody, bitchy and very emotional. Its a constant PERIOD.
My bills seem to never get paid, the more I work and less I go out, still no money. Marymount sent me to collections, rather than send me an actual bill. Now I am worried I cant be put on a lease with carla. Everyone is enjoying their youth and life and I am home! I want to get out of my dead end job, my attitude is that I am depressed and I am depressed that out of everyone that I know...I am not in school? what the fuck is that? I LOVE SCHOOL, I love writing, I love the late night essays and the pain a midterm brings! I cant seem to get a loan to pay off my debt to go back and my grandparents are holding tight, maybe they can take it with them.
No matter how much I try to distract myself, it seems to always be lingering, AHHHHHHHH. I need to get back to school and I need to do something about it
but what?
SERIOUS CRISIS