weird
Oooops...Guess it's been awhile huh??? Anyway...whatever
School's going well. Registered for next semester a week ago. I'm finally going to get to start dancing again! I never thought I would ever have three months where I wasn't dancing...and it will be more like 5 by the time I get started again. :-( God I miss it so much. I know what everyones thinking, how can you miss something that has put you through so much? The answer is simple...I've been through a lot with ballet, there's no question there, but I've recieved so much from it. From my teachers whom I absolutely idolize, to my friends and peers, to my own students. To look back on my very first year of this, it amazes me how much you can learn about yourself and your body and your surroundings.
This past week I started thinking about the most challenging and rewarding role I've ever done...Dawn. I've put it out of my mind for so long because just the sheer thought of it puts me in tears for so many reasons. This time, instead of running from it, I embraced it. I wrote it all down...From how I felt the very first time I danced the variation in October 2003 when Julie first taught it to us, to the feeling of euphoria from reading the cast list, to that final performance when I wanted nothing more than to go out there and dance, not for me, but for Julie...as a thank you and to showing her how much she taught me. LOL Now I've got a mini book.
I marked through the variation Thursday night and woke up Friday morning with the muscles in my stomach sore. *sigh* Going back is going to be so painful. SO painful. I keep trying to stretch and do little things, but it's not doing much. I'm just happy I haven't gained a ton of weight. I was so afraid of that.
I miss Saratoga so much! I'll be there in March. I'm just not sure I'll ever leave. Don't get me wrong...I like it here. It's a nice town, good people...etc. But it's a temporary stop for me. Christy told me that she thinks I'm avoiding meeting people and whatnot, and she's totally right. But I don't know...that's not my purpose here. My purpose is to make some money, and get enough credits to transfer to a real school. ugh...anyway, I'm rambling about unimportant shit...I'm gonna shut up now...
School's going well. Registered for next semester a week ago. I'm finally going to get to start dancing again! I never thought I would ever have three months where I wasn't dancing...and it will be more like 5 by the time I get started again. :-( God I miss it so much. I know what everyones thinking, how can you miss something that has put you through so much? The answer is simple...I've been through a lot with ballet, there's no question there, but I've recieved so much from it. From my teachers whom I absolutely idolize, to my friends and peers, to my own students. To look back on my very first year of this, it amazes me how much you can learn about yourself and your body and your surroundings.
This past week I started thinking about the most challenging and rewarding role I've ever done...Dawn. I've put it out of my mind for so long because just the sheer thought of it puts me in tears for so many reasons. This time, instead of running from it, I embraced it. I wrote it all down...From how I felt the very first time I danced the variation in October 2003 when Julie first taught it to us, to the feeling of euphoria from reading the cast list, to that final performance when I wanted nothing more than to go out there and dance, not for me, but for Julie...as a thank you and to showing her how much she taught me. LOL Now I've got a mini book.
I marked through the variation Thursday night and woke up Friday morning with the muscles in my stomach sore. *sigh* Going back is going to be so painful. SO painful. I keep trying to stretch and do little things, but it's not doing much. I'm just happy I haven't gained a ton of weight. I was so afraid of that.
I miss Saratoga so much! I'll be there in March. I'm just not sure I'll ever leave. Don't get me wrong...I like it here. It's a nice town, good people...etc. But it's a temporary stop for me. Christy told me that she thinks I'm avoiding meeting people and whatnot, and she's totally right. But I don't know...that's not my purpose here. My purpose is to make some money, and get enough credits to transfer to a real school. ugh...anyway, I'm rambling about unimportant shit...I'm gonna shut up now...