I can't believe I'm gone
I've been out of Saratoga for 2 days and it's absolutely killing me. I mean, it's beautiful here and the weather's great. I just miss everyone SO much.
We all went out Tuesday night and had a blast at dinner one last time. I had flashbacks from my birthday and we laughed till it hurt. Then most of us went to Uncommon one last time. Played Cranium. Then I had to say goodbye to Laura which totally sucked. I was pretty good with the tears though, until she and her mom were walking out and she turned back and just looked at me. I almost lost it right there...
Leaving Wednesday was the worst. I knew it was going to be bad. I watched class and every few minutes looked at the clock and realized that I didn't have much time left with everyone. As class ended, I watched Christy and Amy do reverence and I just couldn't hold back anymore. Thank goodness for the box of tissues next to me. I said goodbye to Julie first. She hugged me and told me she loved me and I knew right then that it was never going to be the same. Then I headed toward Christy who tried to run away from me. I hugged her and didn't want to let go. Then I walked out and gave one last longing look into the studio...For the first time ever I wanted more than anything to be in pointe class. Then I had to say goodbye to Amy. After 9 years, I never thought it'd happen. The tears were flowing freely at that point, so I had no shame left. I just let loose, told her I loved her and that I was proud of her. She walked away from the studio and stood at the end of the parking lot and looked back at me. God that hurt. Then, Aggie and I went to see Mr. steele so I could say goodbye to him...that sucked too. The man that I've put 11 years of faith, and passion into, and I had to walk away like it was nothing. Then Aggie and I got in her van, and as we drove away from the building that I've spent the last 11 years of free time in, all the girls and Julie in the studio stood at the window and waved.
So yeah...that was about 20 min of my life that seemed to go on for 20 years.
OK..so, I guess I'm done for now....Thank you all for everything! I couldn't have done this without all the support I've received from everyone over the past year and in years past. I love you all and I miss you more than you could know!!!!!!
We all went out Tuesday night and had a blast at dinner one last time. I had flashbacks from my birthday and we laughed till it hurt. Then most of us went to Uncommon one last time. Played Cranium. Then I had to say goodbye to Laura which totally sucked. I was pretty good with the tears though, until she and her mom were walking out and she turned back and just looked at me. I almost lost it right there...
Leaving Wednesday was the worst. I knew it was going to be bad. I watched class and every few minutes looked at the clock and realized that I didn't have much time left with everyone. As class ended, I watched Christy and Amy do reverence and I just couldn't hold back anymore. Thank goodness for the box of tissues next to me. I said goodbye to Julie first. She hugged me and told me she loved me and I knew right then that it was never going to be the same. Then I headed toward Christy who tried to run away from me. I hugged her and didn't want to let go. Then I walked out and gave one last longing look into the studio...For the first time ever I wanted more than anything to be in pointe class. Then I had to say goodbye to Amy. After 9 years, I never thought it'd happen. The tears were flowing freely at that point, so I had no shame left. I just let loose, told her I loved her and that I was proud of her. She walked away from the studio and stood at the end of the parking lot and looked back at me. God that hurt. Then, Aggie and I went to see Mr. steele so I could say goodbye to him...that sucked too. The man that I've put 11 years of faith, and passion into, and I had to walk away like it was nothing. Then Aggie and I got in her van, and as we drove away from the building that I've spent the last 11 years of free time in, all the girls and Julie in the studio stood at the window and waved.
So yeah...that was about 20 min of my life that seemed to go on for 20 years.
OK..so, I guess I'm done for now....Thank you all for everything! I couldn't have done this without all the support I've received from everyone over the past year and in years past. I love you all and I miss you more than you could know!!!!!!