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[nycoma]

Tristan, first of all I would like to say that im sorry how things turned out with Kris, damn that hoe needs some lessons in breakin up wit a nig, seriously. Tristan, im sorry that shit isn't going the way you want it to right now. Life is fucked up like that sometimes. I will always be your friend whenever you need me to or dont need me to. I will always love you like a friend too.... but anyways I eel that I have a good group of friends that i hang out with, and do shit with. But what if something happened to one of them? josh is drunk again and it just got me thinkin about what if something happened? not just to him to any of them. I mean we all know that messed up people don't have the best judgment in certain situations. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! Scared. Fear. Unknowing. After next year im gonna have to make new friends, and what if I don't want to make new friends? I just want the ones i have now. I like the way it is now. Rob calling me a pansy and always acting tough on the outside. Sean and his CS masterness. Carl and his thuggishness. Nick and his car accidents. Tristan and his all-knowing riteous powers and showing his human side when he isn't the toughguy. Josh and his parties. Joseph and the Jew jokes. Robbie and the hangouts at SnS. Well i guess SnS goes for everyone. Life is scary, I feel so old and im still a teenager. WTF is that? Its like life is passing me by and im not trying new things or succeeding at what i do. I guess more than anything im not succeeding at having a good time. Oh well.... I guess maybe I should try harder.
I love this song.........My Konstantine........