its too bad control is obsolete
i never update here, only myspace now, only because its where everyones ran to. Most my blogs on there are just random horoscopes, the good stuff stayed in perferred lists or private entries to keep all the nosy asses away and out of my life.
Things this summer have gotten progressively worse, and they dont seem to want to get any better, and this time its not by my hand in the least but only by circumstance.
James broke up with me a few days ago, said some hurtful things that i dont ever think he'll be able to take back fully. There are just certain things you dont say to your loved ones, and when you do its the final ending stab in the heart. ANd he did it. It hurt. But maybe it was all the truth, even though now he's back and things are "okay" again. It just makes me wonder how much of anything is honest and truth and how much of it are just lies to keep the comfort level one has grown so accustomed to going.....
Only time will tell but at this point i've regressed to a place in my head i didnt ever want to be in again, regressed to past emotional issues that wont stop yet again, and the only time they did last time was by me destroying what little i had left. I dont wish to go through any of that again.
This love is different, This love wasnt forced but it was built out of love and light. By seeing right into the soul of another human being on drugs or off of them, by knowing that you could look into their eyes and feel the soul link thats always been there....
And now...i look and its cold, and dark, and scared, and angry about the world...she's very angry about it all....
WEll she can go to fucking hell because im done with her, and he's been done with her for a very long time. The bitterness i'll never understand fully boils from down deep and only seems to be getting filled more and more daily, by both parties involved.
Serra and rubi need a reality check, and fast.
..thats all i have to say.
or all will be destroyed...
its too bad that you cant really control what needs to be controlled at the proper times.
Things this summer have gotten progressively worse, and they dont seem to want to get any better, and this time its not by my hand in the least but only by circumstance.
James broke up with me a few days ago, said some hurtful things that i dont ever think he'll be able to take back fully. There are just certain things you dont say to your loved ones, and when you do its the final ending stab in the heart. ANd he did it. It hurt. But maybe it was all the truth, even though now he's back and things are "okay" again. It just makes me wonder how much of anything is honest and truth and how much of it are just lies to keep the comfort level one has grown so accustomed to going.....
Only time will tell but at this point i've regressed to a place in my head i didnt ever want to be in again, regressed to past emotional issues that wont stop yet again, and the only time they did last time was by me destroying what little i had left. I dont wish to go through any of that again.
This love is different, This love wasnt forced but it was built out of love and light. By seeing right into the soul of another human being on drugs or off of them, by knowing that you could look into their eyes and feel the soul link thats always been there....
And now...i look and its cold, and dark, and scared, and angry about the world...she's very angry about it all....
WEll she can go to fucking hell because im done with her, and he's been done with her for a very long time. The bitterness i'll never understand fully boils from down deep and only seems to be getting filled more and more daily, by both parties involved.
Serra and rubi need a reality check, and fast.
..thats all i have to say.
or all will be destroyed...
its too bad that you cant really control what needs to be controlled at the proper times.