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wow! it's been forever. for two months it seemed as if i did nothing. then suddenly i couldn't slow down. i spent a week at the lake with my family. i had a great time. the first night jill, amy, and katie came up. jill learned to ski, katie skiied again, and amy, well, she got up. (you know i love you and you did great, i am very proud!) later in the week amy and katie came back and sarah, amanda, jesse and nathan came up. we had a blast! i never knew how much fun tubing could really be. i've always stuck with skiing, which felt so good to do all week, but tubing was so much fun. we definatly wore out the tube, the boat, and my dad.
a few days after we got back i went back down to the beach with amy, sarah, jesse, nathan, joe c., jacob, and cookie. we had a great time. the drive definately sucked, but being at the beach was worth it. we didn't do a whole lot. we went out to eat one night, but it was great to just relax on the beach and in the ocean. the weather was beautiful, and except for the damn fish, the water was great. we went walking on the beach every night and watched the sun come up one morning. sleep was definately not a priority and i feel like i am still trying to catch up on mine. but everything was great. i would do anything to be back there now, maybe partially for my own reasons, but the entire trip was so much fun!
since i have been back i have pretty much dedicated my life to preparing for school. i have bought so much crap. i feel like my list just won't end. i hope it all fits into my extremely small room. we went down saturday to "spruce up day". i almost cried when i walked in. my room is about the size of my closet. not really, but it is tiny. and two people have to live in it.
i move tomorrow, well, actually today. i will be leaving in about six hours. i don't know how to feel about it. to be honest i am sort of dreading it. i don't think it has actually hit that in less then 24 hours my life will have made a drastic change. yes, i will be leaving my beautiful room and bathroom and so many other "things", but that is really not it. i will miss all of that, but what i am having a hard time with is the emotional stability and normality i have lived with for almost 20 years. i already miss my family terribly. they are the most important part of my life and i can't imagine not seeing them and hugging them everyday. i don't know what it will feel like to not have my parents right across the hall every night or not staying up too late talking to zac about nothing. i can't stand to think about it.
i miss my friends so much. i know a lot of people in montevallo, but they are nothing like the friendships i have made and strengthened this summer. i can't even begin to explain how special this summer has been to me. every summer holds something special, but this one will forever stand out in my mind. a summer of change was the perfect title, not just for the week on tour, but for the past three months. my life turned completely around and i am grateful for every part of it. nothing in this summer resembles any part of years past. many tears have been shed and we have all laughed countless times. the best part, we were all together. there has been thick and there has been thin, but we went through it as a team. we know, more than anyone, that nothing this summer has been even close to perfect. there has been plenty of shit as a whole and as individuals. personally, i can't say i have always had a smile on my face. many things have hurt me. the end of tour was one of the hardest things i have ever done. the youth group has always been my constant. the one thing i could always go back to regardless of how long it had been or what was going on in my life. it was home and kevin made it that way. it seems as though all of that was ripped away from us and nobody ever asked how we felt. but, we got through that and no matter what it takes kevin and the people at church who have hearts will always be a part of my life. yet through all of this pain, many things have helped me. not long after we returned, i was able to lift a burden off of myself that had been weighing me down for almost four years. i finally felt good about that part of my life not being a part of it anymore. my mind was clear from it and a peace about has been with me all summer. so through all of this i am saying thank you to each and everyone of you who has been there for me through it all. ya'll have made this a wonderful and memorable summer. i love you all so much more than you know!
i don't know what the future holds. this summer may be over, but my life is still constantly changing. it's time to grow up, to break away. i can't say i am excited or even that i am ready. but i have dreams for myself and even as far out there as they may seem,. i will try my hardest to reach them.
please keep in touch. i miss you all so much already and will always need you in my life.
meg
a few days after we got back i went back down to the beach with amy, sarah, jesse, nathan, joe c., jacob, and cookie. we had a great time. the drive definately sucked, but being at the beach was worth it. we didn't do a whole lot. we went out to eat one night, but it was great to just relax on the beach and in the ocean. the weather was beautiful, and except for the damn fish, the water was great. we went walking on the beach every night and watched the sun come up one morning. sleep was definately not a priority and i feel like i am still trying to catch up on mine. but everything was great. i would do anything to be back there now, maybe partially for my own reasons, but the entire trip was so much fun!
since i have been back i have pretty much dedicated my life to preparing for school. i have bought so much crap. i feel like my list just won't end. i hope it all fits into my extremely small room. we went down saturday to "spruce up day". i almost cried when i walked in. my room is about the size of my closet. not really, but it is tiny. and two people have to live in it.
i move tomorrow, well, actually today. i will be leaving in about six hours. i don't know how to feel about it. to be honest i am sort of dreading it. i don't think it has actually hit that in less then 24 hours my life will have made a drastic change. yes, i will be leaving my beautiful room and bathroom and so many other "things", but that is really not it. i will miss all of that, but what i am having a hard time with is the emotional stability and normality i have lived with for almost 20 years. i already miss my family terribly. they are the most important part of my life and i can't imagine not seeing them and hugging them everyday. i don't know what it will feel like to not have my parents right across the hall every night or not staying up too late talking to zac about nothing. i can't stand to think about it.
i miss my friends so much. i know a lot of people in montevallo, but they are nothing like the friendships i have made and strengthened this summer. i can't even begin to explain how special this summer has been to me. every summer holds something special, but this one will forever stand out in my mind. a summer of change was the perfect title, not just for the week on tour, but for the past three months. my life turned completely around and i am grateful for every part of it. nothing in this summer resembles any part of years past. many tears have been shed and we have all laughed countless times. the best part, we were all together. there has been thick and there has been thin, but we went through it as a team. we know, more than anyone, that nothing this summer has been even close to perfect. there has been plenty of shit as a whole and as individuals. personally, i can't say i have always had a smile on my face. many things have hurt me. the end of tour was one of the hardest things i have ever done. the youth group has always been my constant. the one thing i could always go back to regardless of how long it had been or what was going on in my life. it was home and kevin made it that way. it seems as though all of that was ripped away from us and nobody ever asked how we felt. but, we got through that and no matter what it takes kevin and the people at church who have hearts will always be a part of my life. yet through all of this pain, many things have helped me. not long after we returned, i was able to lift a burden off of myself that had been weighing me down for almost four years. i finally felt good about that part of my life not being a part of it anymore. my mind was clear from it and a peace about has been with me all summer. so through all of this i am saying thank you to each and everyone of you who has been there for me through it all. ya'll have made this a wonderful and memorable summer. i love you all so much more than you know!
i don't know what the future holds. this summer may be over, but my life is still constantly changing. it's time to grow up, to break away. i can't say i am excited or even that i am ready. but i have dreams for myself and even as far out there as they may seem,. i will try my hardest to reach them.
please keep in touch. i miss you all so much already and will always need you in my life.
meg