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[nyayuri]

I can't sleep, its nearly five in the morning, I'll be on the bus to yoga in a mere four hours and I cannot seem to lie still. I got Mabel back from her puppy sitter who was no longer able to take care of her tonight, I keep waking up and looking at her. My life is in such turmoil. All I want to do is get us safe and stable. I have three weeks to find a place, Im hoping to stay right in Uptown and to keep building on this shaky foundation. Im fearful and hopeful and I've challenged myself in ways so far that I never thought I could and its scary and liberating to be on the brink of disaster. Its this place where night and day dont have a ton of meaning yet and I dont even know who I am some days and Im keeping on.

I dont know where I'd be without Mabel, I felt so lost today and I just looked at her and I just know I'll make it work because I have to for us.