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みら京斗☆
Today was kind of an emotional roller coaster.
This morning was great...it was probably one of my better sleepover-mornings. My back didn't even hurt and usually I spend the whole morning trying to figure out what I can possibly do to get rid of that pain.
But then on the ride home, I found out that while I was gone, one of my cats had to be put to sleep. Her liver was shutting down. This had all happened while I was at the party, so when I left I hadn't even known anything was wrong. Meaning I didn't get to say goodbye or anything, I can't even remember the last time I pet her...but I'd had her for most of my life and I really really miss her.
Then after I'd stopped crying enough to talk, I talked to some friends and felt better...then played some video games to make myself feel better, which it did. And then I went shopping for work clothes with my mom. Which kind of undid all of the cheering up, because clothes shopping with my mother never ends well.
Then I got home in a bad mood but more friends and more video games made me feel better again. And then I went to bed.
And an hour later I couldn't sleep. And now I'm crying about my cat again.
I don't know how I should be feeling right now. The day ended on a good note, so I want to be able to fall asleep happy. But clearly that wasn't happening.
I'm tired.
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Today was kind of an emotional roller coaster.
This morning was great...it was probably one of my better sleepover-mornings. My back didn't even hurt and usually I spend the whole morning trying to figure out what I can possibly do to get rid of that pain.
But then on the ride home, I found out that while I was gone, one of my cats had to be put to sleep. Her liver was shutting down. This had all happened while I was at the party, so when I left I hadn't even known anything was wrong. Meaning I didn't get to say goodbye or anything, I can't even remember the last time I pet her...but I'd had her for most of my life and I really really miss her.
Then after I'd stopped crying enough to talk, I talked to some friends and felt better...then played some video games to make myself feel better, which it did. And then I went shopping for work clothes with my mom. Which kind of undid all of the cheering up, because clothes shopping with my mother never ends well.
Then I got home in a bad mood but more friends and more video games made me feel better again. And then I went to bed.
And an hour later I couldn't sleep. And now I'm crying about my cat again.
I don't know how I should be feeling right now. The day ended on a good note, so I want to be able to fall asleep happy. But clearly that wasn't happening.
I'm tired.
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