When I say, "I'll never forgive you," that's actually a lie.
I remember this one incident in... I want to say 2004, 2005 maybe. There was one guy who liked to do a few Sailormoon fandubs, and I think his name was Steve. I can't remember his name for sure, all I really remember about him was that he was gay, hahaha. But I think his name was Steve.
In Steve's fandub, he cast a certain person as Usagi. Halfway through the fandub, Usagi was voiced by a second person because the original person didn't have time to finish all of the lines, or something like that. I don't know, I wasn't involved with the project, so I'm just assuming that's the case.
Anyway, he posted his fandub on the VAA, and I watched it and left him a critique. Like, a real critique, not one of the ones that goes, "omg ;-; you were just perfect I loved everything and I'm not trying to be mean but the bgm could have been louder ;-; but everything was so kawaii good jobz!!! ^___^"
NO.
NOTHING LIKE THAT. That's just disgusting. *slaps the above paragraph* I'm grateful that the age of 16~17 I had enough sense not to do that. Good job, 16~17 year old, Rikka. Keep on keepin' on.
So I left the guy a real critique, telling him exactly what I liked, but also exactly what I didn't like. And I really didn't like the girl (the first one) he chose to voice Usagi. Well, I didn't dislike the actual GIRL, I didn't know her nor remembered hearing her in anything before that, but I didn't like the way she portrayed Usagi. It didn't fit to me, and her acting fell flat a lot of the time. I said that, and like, even pointed out specific instances so they knew I wasn't trying to BS them or pick on this one girl. But come on, if you're the lead, in a role like Tsukino Usagi, there's some kind of level of expectation, that's all. .-. I expect the lead to be halfway decent. Not perfect, but decent. I didn't think this girl was doing it right. Plus, if you do not want a critique, YOU SHOULD NOT BE VOICE ACTING. You should not be auditioning for things that will be posted publicly on the forums. Or, you should tell the producer that when he/she posts it, to mention that you only want good things said about your role.
So yeah, I told them, I really didn't like this Usagi. I had nothing against the girl, I just didn't think her voice fit.
This girl went crazy on me, saying something like, "I've never seen anyone leave a critique like that!" Well, congrats on your first time! *thumbs up* Sorry I can't be all "omg kawaaii!!!! =^__^=" about your performance. *shrug* Cristina Vee and like one or two other people completely omitted commenting about her character when doing their critiques after that (since yeah, she obviously couldn't take anything negative being said about her voice acting). Funny enough, the producer of this clip was not offended, but actually was grateful I put this woman in her place, as he told me in an IM.
At the time, if I'm not mistaken, this person had done some voice acting professionally as well. Some minor roles in the official Inuyasha dub that used to show on Cartoon Network. (Did I ever mention here that my mother is "addicted" to Inuyasha? Those were her words, I'm not kidding!) So, she had some kind of resume and site where she put her demos and blogged about voice acting. After this incident, she made this blog post saying she's never gotten a critique like this, eff this girl called Rikka, if you ever go to the VAA, stay away from her, she's bad news, she's crazy, etc. And I remember fiona_conn saying to me, "...Wow, she named you publicly on her site, I'm so sorry..." But as if I really gave a dang, lol. *shrug*
So from that moment on, I did what any rational person does when they are don't like a certain person - I stayed away. I did not critique clips she was in. Or if I just HAD to comment on a clip she was in, I definitely didn't address her character, whether I liked her voice or not in it. Whenever I browsed the forums, I skipped over her posts. See, it's not that hard, right? I have no idea why some people insist on keeping tabs on people they dislike. It doesn't make sense. It's just going to make you mad. Just stop. The only forums browse nowadays are the Pangya forums, and trust me, there are a CRAPLOAD of people there I wish would just go jump in a lake. So because of that, I try not to respond to them (unless they say something completely outrageous). I don't talk to them in-game if I see them. I don't go stalking their blogs or stalking their posts or something dumb like that. I expect them to do the same in return, as I'm sure they don't like me in return. I'm not following them on Twitter, none of that junk. So that way, I lessen my changes of raging at something dumb they did/said. Less interaction/keep up with them = the happier I find that I am. I don't know, that just seems common sense to me.
I actually asked one of the people I don't like from this community why he was commenting on the blog of someone he didn't like, and he was all, "Well, despite our differences, I still hoped we could get along and agree on something!" But dude, you don't LIKE her, she doesn't like you, stop stalking her blog! He did the same thing to me. You know dang well I can't stand your guts and I'm sure you can't stand mine, WHY are you e-following me around?! I don't do that to you because I don't want to spend all day ranting about your sorry behind. I don't want to get mad, so I avoid you. I have no idea why people do this. It's like self-torture, but they get some weird pleasure from it.
I also asked the guy I used to be in love with something similar, like last year or something. Since it was painfully clear we couldn't get along (water and oil なのです) no matter what, and I was convinced I would have been his least favorite person in the world if it weren't for his General Manager at his job, I asked why he still insisted on friending my on LJ, keeping up with my journal entries (no idea if he's still doing this, but I don't really care anymore since I write whatever the heck I want in the end anyway, nihaha) and my personal life and all that stuff. I think he said it was because even though we didn't get along, he still cared about me as a person and... wanted to know/make sure I was doing okay? Something like that. *sigh* But I think it's just stupid, though, if you piss me off (and he did say I pissed him off), I'm really just not going to e-follow you. I don't want to get even more pissed off, I want to look after myself and my feelings. It's just a tsundere move to me. "I hate you but I like you enough to check out what you're up to! ♥" (Not that tsundere is a bad thing, I have plenty of tsundere tendencies myself! There's just a time and a place for it. Not every situation calls for tsun, you have to learn to balance it out appropriately! I hate inappropriate tsundereness.)
But you can't tell some people anything. (← My catchphrase for the week.)
People are a bunch of tsunderes deep down inside, they just don't even realize it or care to admit it. *waves hand*
So I avoided this girl no matter what. And then it was... 2007? 2008? and I suddenly got a message from this woman on Livejournal. Completely out of the blue. I think we had some of the same friends, and I must have commented on one of their journals and that's how she found me. I'm not sure if people would normally hunt somebody down just to apologize for an incident that happened like 4 years ago, that everyone has completely forgotten about (unless it was something major, like you killed their cat or something). But yeah, she suddenly sent me a message on LJ. She said if I was the same "Rikka" from that incident 3 or 4 years ago, that she apologized for the drama.
I ended up not replying, because I didn't quite know what to say, but I was really grateful for her apology so many years later, even though I had long forgotten about this. And at that instance, all was forgiven. I had no more animosity for her, no more grudge against her. What I should have done was replied to her apologizing as well, saying I'm sorry that I was overly harsh when I critiqued her. That's what I should have done.
I'm trying to learn not to say things like, "Well, if I offended you..." because apparently, using the word "if" belittles the offended party's feelings. If that's how they feel, that's how they feel. If they were offended by something you said, you can't dispute that or question if they're actually offended or not. It's how they feel, they can't really help that. So when apologizing, I'm trying to get better at wording it appropriately, and not using the word "if." They were mad or sad at whatever I did or said, so there's no "if" about it. It's not, "if I offended you, I'm sorry" - it's just, "I'm sorry that I offended you."
But that actually meant a lot to me, even though I had forgotten all about it until she sent me that message over LJ that one day. When I was a child, and apparently a lot of children have this trait, when some other person made me feel bad about something or made me cry, got be upset, etc, I would be mad for a while, but then forget all about it within a day. While I've not completely lost this trait, I still wish I could be like this with everyone. With friends, I'm usually like this. With strangers, I'm not, because if your first interaction with me leaves me enraged, I'm just going to assume you're a bad person and want nothing to do with you. But even with friends, I tend not to forget they hurt me that one time when they did/said ____ until they talk to me about it and apologize for hurting my feelings or whatever. "I'm sorry" really is a magic word for me. A lot of people can't handle saying those two words, but even if I feel just kinda sorta a little guilty, I dish it out 5 times a minute. I'm one to apologize profusely and continue to feel guilty about it for like a week. For me, saying "I'm sorry" changes everything. It lets me know that even though you were mad at the time, you honestly didn't mean to say what you said. It lets me know that whatever you did/said, you didn't intend to cause drama or make me feel bad. Or that you feel regret. And if I'm the one who needs to apologize, I definitely say sorry in hopes of being forgiven and not having the other person hate me or think I'm a female dog.
So unless you hurt my children (children = cats), I probably don't mean it if I actually told you that I'd never forgive you. That was just me being a tsundere. I hate you, but I love you at the same time - you just can't know that. My grudges tend to disappear once I am approached by the person who I feel has wronged me and "I'm sorry" has been said.
In Steve's fandub, he cast a certain person as Usagi. Halfway through the fandub, Usagi was voiced by a second person because the original person didn't have time to finish all of the lines, or something like that. I don't know, I wasn't involved with the project, so I'm just assuming that's the case.
Anyway, he posted his fandub on the VAA, and I watched it and left him a critique. Like, a real critique, not one of the ones that goes, "omg ;-; you were just perfect I loved everything and I'm not trying to be mean but the bgm could have been louder ;-; but everything was so kawaii good jobz!!! ^___^"
NO.
NOTHING LIKE THAT. That's just disgusting. *slaps the above paragraph* I'm grateful that the age of 16~17 I had enough sense not to do that. Good job, 16~17 year old, Rikka. Keep on keepin' on.
So I left the guy a real critique, telling him exactly what I liked, but also exactly what I didn't like. And I really didn't like the girl (the first one) he chose to voice Usagi. Well, I didn't dislike the actual GIRL, I didn't know her nor remembered hearing her in anything before that, but I didn't like the way she portrayed Usagi. It didn't fit to me, and her acting fell flat a lot of the time. I said that, and like, even pointed out specific instances so they knew I wasn't trying to BS them or pick on this one girl. But come on, if you're the lead, in a role like Tsukino Usagi, there's some kind of level of expectation, that's all. .-. I expect the lead to be halfway decent. Not perfect, but decent. I didn't think this girl was doing it right. Plus, if you do not want a critique, YOU SHOULD NOT BE VOICE ACTING. You should not be auditioning for things that will be posted publicly on the forums. Or, you should tell the producer that when he/she posts it, to mention that you only want good things said about your role.
So yeah, I told them, I really didn't like this Usagi. I had nothing against the girl, I just didn't think her voice fit.
This girl went crazy on me, saying something like, "I've never seen anyone leave a critique like that!" Well, congrats on your first time! *thumbs up* Sorry I can't be all "omg kawaaii!!!! =^__^=" about your performance. *shrug* Cristina Vee and like one or two other people completely omitted commenting about her character when doing their critiques after that (since yeah, she obviously couldn't take anything negative being said about her voice acting). Funny enough, the producer of this clip was not offended, but actually was grateful I put this woman in her place, as he told me in an IM.
At the time, if I'm not mistaken, this person had done some voice acting professionally as well. Some minor roles in the official Inuyasha dub that used to show on Cartoon Network. (Did I ever mention here that my mother is "addicted" to Inuyasha? Those were her words, I'm not kidding!) So, she had some kind of resume and site where she put her demos and blogged about voice acting. After this incident, she made this blog post saying she's never gotten a critique like this, eff this girl called Rikka, if you ever go to the VAA, stay away from her, she's bad news, she's crazy, etc. And I remember fiona_conn saying to me, "...Wow, she named you publicly on her site, I'm so sorry..." But as if I really gave a dang, lol. *shrug*
So from that moment on, I did what any rational person does when they are don't like a certain person - I stayed away. I did not critique clips she was in. Or if I just HAD to comment on a clip she was in, I definitely didn't address her character, whether I liked her voice or not in it. Whenever I browsed the forums, I skipped over her posts. See, it's not that hard, right? I have no idea why some people insist on keeping tabs on people they dislike. It doesn't make sense. It's just going to make you mad. Just stop. The only forums browse nowadays are the Pangya forums, and trust me, there are a CRAPLOAD of people there I wish would just go jump in a lake. So because of that, I try not to respond to them (unless they say something completely outrageous). I don't talk to them in-game if I see them. I don't go stalking their blogs or stalking their posts or something dumb like that. I expect them to do the same in return, as I'm sure they don't like me in return. I'm not following them on Twitter, none of that junk. So that way, I lessen my changes of raging at something dumb they did/said. Less interaction/keep up with them = the happier I find that I am. I don't know, that just seems common sense to me.
I actually asked one of the people I don't like from this community why he was commenting on the blog of someone he didn't like, and he was all, "Well, despite our differences, I still hoped we could get along and agree on something!" But dude, you don't LIKE her, she doesn't like you, stop stalking her blog! He did the same thing to me. You know dang well I can't stand your guts and I'm sure you can't stand mine, WHY are you e-following me around?! I don't do that to you because I don't want to spend all day ranting about your sorry behind. I don't want to get mad, so I avoid you. I have no idea why people do this. It's like self-torture, but they get some weird pleasure from it.
I also asked the guy I used to be in love with something similar, like last year or something. Since it was painfully clear we couldn't get along (water and oil なのです) no matter what, and I was convinced I would have been his least favorite person in the world if it weren't for his General Manager at his job, I asked why he still insisted on friending my on LJ, keeping up with my journal entries (no idea if he's still doing this, but I don't really care anymore since I write whatever the heck I want in the end anyway, nihaha) and my personal life and all that stuff. I think he said it was because even though we didn't get along, he still cared about me as a person and... wanted to know/make sure I was doing okay? Something like that. *sigh* But I think it's just stupid, though, if you piss me off (and he did say I pissed him off), I'm really just not going to e-follow you. I don't want to get even more pissed off, I want to look after myself and my feelings. It's just a tsundere move to me. "I hate you but I like you enough to check out what you're up to! ♥" (Not that tsundere is a bad thing, I have plenty of tsundere tendencies myself! There's just a time and a place for it. Not every situation calls for tsun, you have to learn to balance it out appropriately! I hate inappropriate tsundereness.)
But you can't tell some people anything. (← My catchphrase for the week.)
People are a bunch of tsunderes deep down inside, they just don't even realize it or care to admit it. *waves hand*
So I avoided this girl no matter what. And then it was... 2007? 2008? and I suddenly got a message from this woman on Livejournal. Completely out of the blue. I think we had some of the same friends, and I must have commented on one of their journals and that's how she found me. I'm not sure if people would normally hunt somebody down just to apologize for an incident that happened like 4 years ago, that everyone has completely forgotten about (unless it was something major, like you killed their cat or something). But yeah, she suddenly sent me a message on LJ. She said if I was the same "Rikka" from that incident 3 or 4 years ago, that she apologized for the drama.
I ended up not replying, because I didn't quite know what to say, but I was really grateful for her apology so many years later, even though I had long forgotten about this. And at that instance, all was forgiven. I had no more animosity for her, no more grudge against her. What I should have done was replied to her apologizing as well, saying I'm sorry that I was overly harsh when I critiqued her. That's what I should have done.
I'm trying to learn not to say things like, "Well, if I offended you..." because apparently, using the word "if" belittles the offended party's feelings. If that's how they feel, that's how they feel. If they were offended by something you said, you can't dispute that or question if they're actually offended or not. It's how they feel, they can't really help that. So when apologizing, I'm trying to get better at wording it appropriately, and not using the word "if." They were mad or sad at whatever I did or said, so there's no "if" about it. It's not, "if I offended you, I'm sorry" - it's just, "I'm sorry that I offended you."
But that actually meant a lot to me, even though I had forgotten all about it until she sent me that message over LJ that one day. When I was a child, and apparently a lot of children have this trait, when some other person made me feel bad about something or made me cry, got be upset, etc, I would be mad for a while, but then forget all about it within a day. While I've not completely lost this trait, I still wish I could be like this with everyone. With friends, I'm usually like this. With strangers, I'm not, because if your first interaction with me leaves me enraged, I'm just going to assume you're a bad person and want nothing to do with you. But even with friends, I tend not to forget they hurt me that one time when they did/said ____ until they talk to me about it and apologize for hurting my feelings or whatever. "I'm sorry" really is a magic word for me. A lot of people can't handle saying those two words, but even if I feel just kinda sorta a little guilty, I dish it out 5 times a minute. I'm one to apologize profusely and continue to feel guilty about it for like a week. For me, saying "I'm sorry" changes everything. It lets me know that even though you were mad at the time, you honestly didn't mean to say what you said. It lets me know that whatever you did/said, you didn't intend to cause drama or make me feel bad. Or that you feel regret. And if I'm the one who needs to apologize, I definitely say sorry in hopes of being forgiven and not having the other person hate me or think I'm a female dog.
So unless you hurt my children (children = cats), I probably don't mean it if I actually told you that I'd never forgive you. That was just me being a tsundere. I hate you, but I love you at the same time - you just can't know that. My grudges tend to disappear once I am approached by the person who I feel has wronged me and "I'm sorry" has been said.