The sickness in everyone's heart.
saw something tonight that reminded me of something sad - "I want to cry" level: 30%
kind of in a paranoid mood since my sister left to go ~somewhere~ (I guess to work, she takes stupid shifts for no apparent reason) at 5:30AM and it's 11:20PM and she's still not home (I can't stand this girl 70% of the time, but I do love her as I love any family member) and I'm an overly worrying kind of person, I worry about everything and everyone - "I want to cry" level: 50%
took a shower to try to cheer myself up (the hot water makes me feel better), started thinking about how if something really tragic happened to our (immediate) family, that I'd have like no coping techniques - "I want to cry" level: 60%
bathroom door doesn't close all the way any more so the girl cats came in while I was taking a shower, stared and meowed at me and then I thought about how the boy and (big) girl cats are 8 years old now and half their lives are probably over (although the calico cat lived to be like... 18 years old before she died in 2006) - "I want to cry" level: 70%
been having depressing dreams about a certain someone - "I want to cry" level: 80%
*sigh* I'm late with the 30 Day Meme (3 days left!) but I've just been feeling depressed and helpless and lonely since the week began...
edit: but at least I showed that female dog Satori who's boss! /o/ that's one happy thing.
kind of in a paranoid mood since my sister left to go ~somewhere~ (I guess to work, she takes stupid shifts for no apparent reason) at 5:30AM and it's 11:20PM and she's still not home (I can't stand this girl 70% of the time, but I do love her as I love any family member) and I'm an overly worrying kind of person, I worry about everything and everyone - "I want to cry" level: 50%
took a shower to try to cheer myself up (the hot water makes me feel better), started thinking about how if something really tragic happened to our (immediate) family, that I'd have like no coping techniques - "I want to cry" level: 60%
bathroom door doesn't close all the way any more so the girl cats came in while I was taking a shower, stared and meowed at me and then I thought about how the boy and (big) girl cats are 8 years old now and half their lives are probably over (although the calico cat lived to be like... 18 years old before she died in 2006) - "I want to cry" level: 70%
been having depressing dreams about a certain someone - "I want to cry" level: 80%
*sigh* I'm late with the 30 Day Meme (3 days left!) but I've just been feeling depressed and helpless and lonely since the week began...
edit: but at least I showed that female dog Satori who's boss! /o/ that's one happy thing.