get along little doggies.
i'm not quite sure what it is...but somehow i have this huge magnet on my ass for crazy psycho stalkers, and its really starting to fucking bug me.
well, on a heavier note.
grandfather was *crosses fingers* released from the hospital tonight from having pneumonia. at which point he is now going to a rehab hospital to re-learn how to walk without falling down. (now a major concern due to the cancer...because my grandmother isn't strong enough to lift him and my dad is working semi-full time)i miss my father, but with his father in massachusetts is where he belongs. my grampa would've never let him "abandon" his family and move back to massachusetts if he thought he was going to survive. he's not ignorant. he's one of the most intelligent and well-spoken men i know. we should've never moved...its killing me inside to know that the next time i'm probably going to see him is at the fucking funeral. and most of the people surrounding him now don't even fully grasp the reality of whats going on. GOODNESS GRACIOUS, OPEN YOUR EYES!!!! see and experience all that is going on. live for now.
"if you live with one foot in tomorrow and one foot in yesterday...you're gonna piss all over today." -bob.
i think i've stirred up enough emotions for one night.
sleep well.
well, on a heavier note.
grandfather was *crosses fingers* released from the hospital tonight from having pneumonia. at which point he is now going to a rehab hospital to re-learn how to walk without falling down. (now a major concern due to the cancer...because my grandmother isn't strong enough to lift him and my dad is working semi-full time)i miss my father, but with his father in massachusetts is where he belongs. my grampa would've never let him "abandon" his family and move back to massachusetts if he thought he was going to survive. he's not ignorant. he's one of the most intelligent and well-spoken men i know. we should've never moved...its killing me inside to know that the next time i'm probably going to see him is at the fucking funeral. and most of the people surrounding him now don't even fully grasp the reality of whats going on. GOODNESS GRACIOUS, OPEN YOUR EYES!!!! see and experience all that is going on. live for now.
"if you live with one foot in tomorrow and one foot in yesterday...you're gonna piss all over today." -bob.
i think i've stirred up enough emotions for one night.
sleep well.