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haven't made a decent post here in such a long time. guess i'll do that now...
what's been going on in the life of miya. well, not too much exciting stuff but enough to keep boredome out of my life. lets see, i almost went to a strip club with some friends but we got there too early and the dancers wernt there, so we went movie hopping. i also found out a new place around my neighbourhood to hang out, but iiiiim nooooot telling youuuuu. ive also been preparing myself for the big move, however im not sure when that'll be. i am mentally prepared though, which will help me tremendously when im home sick. i don't understand why i'm not out of alaska yet. i have money, im not in school, ive made peace with friends and family so i should be gone right? well i have to make sure my living situation is well secure in nj. for those of you who don't know the story i'm moving out of my parents house and in with my boyfriend. we're hoping to get our own apartment but rent in jersey is expensive for a couple of teenagers. i might have to find temporary housing but i'm okay with that, once i'm there i'll be able to help him find apartments, and once the landlord/lady sees that both of us will be living there, both with stable jobs and more than enough money for down payments, etc. i think it'll be easier. im always welcome at his mums house, but i know how much she likes her privacy (she's been living by herself for many years now, she's the adventurous type) and if we don't find a place right away i don't want to feel guilty for staying at his mums place for too long. if we get desperate (which what seems to be the case, almost) we might just end up looking for a roomate.
ive also been shopping, not too much i'm trying to save my money. but ive been spending it wisely, going to the best thrift stores in town. i like to go shopping by myself. why do people feel like they have to give their opinion in situations like shopping with a friend? i just like to be alone period... i always have, but for only things like this. when i'm alone in my room i wish i could magically transport my boyfriend to my bed. he's the reason why i don't like to be "alone" in a sense mentally/whatever. anyway, ive been shopping because i was looking in my closet and i realized i have not had new clothes since high school, and the person i was in high school is like miya version 10.2 and now i'm like version 15.5. that makes no sense. but i like to dress the way i feel, and i'm not feeling all that silly teen angst i used to have. ive changed a lot, but for the better. notice i dont have any "i just want to kill myself!" posts. ...strange, i never thought i'd change so much, i thought change was unecessary. but now i realize experiencing the same thing over and over and wondering why i dont like the outcome of it sometimes? change it up and we'll see what happens next. actually, i have something i wrote related to that (change) i've just never posted it. i write a lot of posts for my other journal (xcherryjonesx feel free to add that one, it's a little more thought provoking than this one) i just never finish them therefore never posting them. but trust me, i'll be updating with at least 5 posts. i think way too damn much.
here's something i did on photoshop (im addicted)
aren't we hot together?
what's been going on in the life of miya. well, not too much exciting stuff but enough to keep boredome out of my life. lets see, i almost went to a strip club with some friends but we got there too early and the dancers wernt there, so we went movie hopping. i also found out a new place around my neighbourhood to hang out, but iiiiim nooooot telling youuuuu. ive also been preparing myself for the big move, however im not sure when that'll be. i am mentally prepared though, which will help me tremendously when im home sick. i don't understand why i'm not out of alaska yet. i have money, im not in school, ive made peace with friends and family so i should be gone right? well i have to make sure my living situation is well secure in nj. for those of you who don't know the story i'm moving out of my parents house and in with my boyfriend. we're hoping to get our own apartment but rent in jersey is expensive for a couple of teenagers. i might have to find temporary housing but i'm okay with that, once i'm there i'll be able to help him find apartments, and once the landlord/lady sees that both of us will be living there, both with stable jobs and more than enough money for down payments, etc. i think it'll be easier. im always welcome at his mums house, but i know how much she likes her privacy (she's been living by herself for many years now, she's the adventurous type) and if we don't find a place right away i don't want to feel guilty for staying at his mums place for too long. if we get desperate (which what seems to be the case, almost) we might just end up looking for a roomate.
ive also been shopping, not too much i'm trying to save my money. but ive been spending it wisely, going to the best thrift stores in town. i like to go shopping by myself. why do people feel like they have to give their opinion in situations like shopping with a friend? i just like to be alone period... i always have, but for only things like this. when i'm alone in my room i wish i could magically transport my boyfriend to my bed. he's the reason why i don't like to be "alone" in a sense mentally/whatever. anyway, ive been shopping because i was looking in my closet and i realized i have not had new clothes since high school, and the person i was in high school is like miya version 10.2 and now i'm like version 15.5. that makes no sense. but i like to dress the way i feel, and i'm not feeling all that silly teen angst i used to have. ive changed a lot, but for the better. notice i dont have any "i just want to kill myself!" posts. ...strange, i never thought i'd change so much, i thought change was unecessary. but now i realize experiencing the same thing over and over and wondering why i dont like the outcome of it sometimes? change it up and we'll see what happens next. actually, i have something i wrote related to that (change) i've just never posted it. i write a lot of posts for my other journal (xcherryjonesx feel free to add that one, it's a little more thought provoking than this one) i just never finish them therefore never posting them. but trust me, i'll be updating with at least 5 posts. i think way too damn much.
here's something i did on photoshop (im addicted)
aren't we hot together?