A... confusing thought.. Lesson of Life
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be when the world was younger and you had everything to lose.
When I was younger, I dared to dream.
My parents have their own back up plan, even when I don’t.
Dreaming is a very easy task to do.
You can be anything you want.
You can even dream to fly.
Barriers start when you get older.
You learnt that some things are just impossible to do.
You started to realise that you’re on your own.
That you possibly don’t have any other backing and support from others.
They might even scorn you of dreaming too big.
Those with status look down on you.
And those who are down enough, telling you ‘don’t get your hopes up, son’.
That the superior world has its own rules and following it doesn’t mean you’ll end up somewhere fine.
You learn to live.
You learn to survive. And it's even easier to keep yourself alive from animals in the jungle compared to insatiable human beings that you, basically, grow up with.
And sometimes, when life is too sweet, you got bored of it easily and ask for something more challenging.
Then problem comes.
You got tired of problems. Said there are too much that have happened in your life right now.
You passed through a problem and failed at others.
And the wind of change comes.
Life is getting better again.
And you wish for something else, something that you might not have yet...There is no end to our wishes and hopes.
I can be content enough, but usually it happened after a storm hit me.
That doesn’t stay long before I ask for more.
I.. kinda get what I’ve been wanted, but… it is not in my hand to decide.
And I got frustrated.
I put it into a box of problems.
Declared it as a problem even though it wasn’t one.
And I started to wish for something else to appear, for things to happen.
Again, my power is limited.
I might get it. I might not.
But somehow, The One that told the raging sea to calm down can do everything He wants.
He knows more than me.
And I believe, everything that Life has passed me down will teach me something.