This ones for the girls...
I've almost lost three important people in my life...
Frist, My dad had a heart attack when I was 3 and he was in the hospital for a week and a half. I think back on that and think to myself "what if my dad didn't make it that night?" I would've grown up without him. He's such an influence on me now...I wouldn't be who I am today without him. Wow...thats hard to think about right now
Second, My mom was diagnosed with breast cancer when I was in 7th grade. My mom discovered this after a mamogram...she was originally going to miss that appointment because of something else. Fortunately for her, she was able to go to it. If she would've missed the appointment like she had planned, then the cancer would've progressed so far that it couldn't be helped. Mannnnnnnnnn life without my mom, wouldn't be life at all.
Third, My sister attempted suicide my sophomore year in high school. Two more pills would've put her over the edge and six feet under. How selfish of her to even consider that. I'm still seeing a counselor about this and she's still alive. I cant imagine what i would be like if she would've followed through with her plan.
I've come so close to losing important influences and family members. Its still so hard on me to this day to think that they were almost not a part of my life at one point. Imagine what I'd be like if they really werent there. My heart goes out to Jess Loduca. People may say "get over it, move on, yadda, yadda" but shes right guys its easier said than done. I have not personally lost anyone yet, but its hard enough coming that close. Fuck you guys who think people should move on with their life right away. It takes time. I cant even imagine being in that position. Do you know how much your life is affected? No one does, unless they've experienced it.
I really dont know why iI wrote this journal entry, but my heart really does go out to Jess because I cannot imagine being in that position and it must be so hard dealing with it. I love you even though I dont know or talk to you that much. I dont like when people are hurting inside no matter who you are or what my association is with you. You all matter to me.
I PROMISE.
Jess I love you...be strong.
Frist, My dad had a heart attack when I was 3 and he was in the hospital for a week and a half. I think back on that and think to myself "what if my dad didn't make it that night?" I would've grown up without him. He's such an influence on me now...I wouldn't be who I am today without him. Wow...thats hard to think about right now
Second, My mom was diagnosed with breast cancer when I was in 7th grade. My mom discovered this after a mamogram...she was originally going to miss that appointment because of something else. Fortunately for her, she was able to go to it. If she would've missed the appointment like she had planned, then the cancer would've progressed so far that it couldn't be helped. Mannnnnnnnnn life without my mom, wouldn't be life at all.
Third, My sister attempted suicide my sophomore year in high school. Two more pills would've put her over the edge and six feet under. How selfish of her to even consider that. I'm still seeing a counselor about this and she's still alive. I cant imagine what i would be like if she would've followed through with her plan.
I've come so close to losing important influences and family members. Its still so hard on me to this day to think that they were almost not a part of my life at one point. Imagine what I'd be like if they really werent there. My heart goes out to Jess Loduca. People may say "get over it, move on, yadda, yadda" but shes right guys its easier said than done. I have not personally lost anyone yet, but its hard enough coming that close. Fuck you guys who think people should move on with their life right away. It takes time. I cant even imagine being in that position. Do you know how much your life is affected? No one does, unless they've experienced it.
I really dont know why iI wrote this journal entry, but my heart really does go out to Jess because I cannot imagine being in that position and it must be so hard dealing with it. I love you even though I dont know or talk to you that much. I dont like when people are hurting inside no matter who you are or what my association is with you. You all matter to me.
I PROMISE.
Jess I love you...be strong.