a long long entry but at least it has substance. Sorry forgot how to cut it down
Dear Die-ry,
~It has been seemingly ages since I’ve even updated my lj with anything other then a random quiz or even a minute entry. It has been long overdue and as such been typing my heart out to see if I can thus give an entry that fills in any voids in my life that I have left out or completely not mentioned.
~I am currently working two jobs a big change for I am if anything accustomed to working one job only. I was originally working in an ice cream shop called Haagen-Dazs it was an ok job as it gave me money to steadily be repaying my large debts due to college and credit cards. It was ok and the people I worked with were great, with the exception of my Manager, and I enjoyed it for a while but it left me in the position that I didn’t see a penny of the money for myself. I got another job one due to the limited pay I was getting and secondly the crazy hrs I was working for only $6.00 an hr.
~My sister then got me a job at Century 21 a dept store sorta famous in NYC. I work in the Brooklyn store and my position is Sales. I sell men’s suits and other “tailored clothing”. To be more specific suits, pants, blazers, rain coats higher end clothing. It’s a definite step up from a food industry job and for me feels far more professional. It gives me more of a sense of making my money by doing work then by being bitched. In other places there has been a major improvement in the financial world. I have managed the use of my money and have been paying back Northeastern and other extemporaneous bills.
~Money is still an issue for me as since I don’t have a room at the moment I am having no luck in getting a schedule for sleep. My room for the past few months has been taken over by the rest of my family. I lent my room to my sis and mom to sleep as I would take a floor as a favor for my niece as she was sweating. I was making sure she was comfy and then I never got my room back. That was about three months ago and now my room is more my sisters and less and less mine. I get yelled at all the time for doing nothing but at the same time I have no time and lil sleep to be doing anything. I was basically waking up going to work at Century 21 then to Haagen-Dazs after words and was working a 60 hrs a week and yet I was and am not getting any respect.
~Respect while on the topic for me has been sorely lacking. I work to the bone sometimes so tired I don’t even want to wake up and head to work to try and make things easier in my house. Easier by paying my own bills and lessening the financial burden on my parents. It has been however a constant battle to gain any respect or even feel comfortable in my own house. It’s been like I am the outsider in the family yet I live underneath the same roof and walk on the same floor. Its saddening to think the only reason I am staying in my house is for my niece and my niece alone. I’ve been told to think of moving out but at the same time I may have to use my family for a little while longer since I plan to go back to school. It’s ridiculous for me to even think of getting my own place yet since I am up to my eyeballs in debt. In one surprising turn I got a credit card and am using it slowly to build back up my credit.
~In family news the same old same old. Fights with my mother fights with my sister who’s moved back in the house the same old deal over and over. I always wonder how long my patience is and I am finding out its quite long indeed. I have dealt with so much some of my friend’s wonder why I haven’t snapped. It’s a good question one I don’t have an answer to except possibly I have already lived with it so long it may be common place for me. A sad fact if it is true but that doesn’t mean it isn’t a truth. Sadly the same old fights and entanglements happen over and over and no difference in the way I respond help so I shall move on and simply bear that weight on my shoulders should I find a way out I would definitely take it.
~Moving from the family to relationships…what relationships lol? After Erica I did date one girl but that was short lived. I did afterwards “hook up” with another one but it was more based on mutual need and def attraction. For the most part all I have are memories of past relationships and people I’ve had fun with and the fun is always in my head man those were moments I won’t ever forget. But for now this is my update. Ill try to type in once a week to let people now I am alive. ‘Til then hope to hear from you and I hope to keep my promise of updates.
~It has been seemingly ages since I’ve even updated my lj with anything other then a random quiz or even a minute entry. It has been long overdue and as such been typing my heart out to see if I can thus give an entry that fills in any voids in my life that I have left out or completely not mentioned.
~I am currently working two jobs a big change for I am if anything accustomed to working one job only. I was originally working in an ice cream shop called Haagen-Dazs it was an ok job as it gave me money to steadily be repaying my large debts due to college and credit cards. It was ok and the people I worked with were great, with the exception of my Manager, and I enjoyed it for a while but it left me in the position that I didn’t see a penny of the money for myself. I got another job one due to the limited pay I was getting and secondly the crazy hrs I was working for only $6.00 an hr.
~My sister then got me a job at Century 21 a dept store sorta famous in NYC. I work in the Brooklyn store and my position is Sales. I sell men’s suits and other “tailored clothing”. To be more specific suits, pants, blazers, rain coats higher end clothing. It’s a definite step up from a food industry job and for me feels far more professional. It gives me more of a sense of making my money by doing work then by being bitched. In other places there has been a major improvement in the financial world. I have managed the use of my money and have been paying back Northeastern and other extemporaneous bills.
~Money is still an issue for me as since I don’t have a room at the moment I am having no luck in getting a schedule for sleep. My room for the past few months has been taken over by the rest of my family. I lent my room to my sis and mom to sleep as I would take a floor as a favor for my niece as she was sweating. I was making sure she was comfy and then I never got my room back. That was about three months ago and now my room is more my sisters and less and less mine. I get yelled at all the time for doing nothing but at the same time I have no time and lil sleep to be doing anything. I was basically waking up going to work at Century 21 then to Haagen-Dazs after words and was working a 60 hrs a week and yet I was and am not getting any respect.
~Respect while on the topic for me has been sorely lacking. I work to the bone sometimes so tired I don’t even want to wake up and head to work to try and make things easier in my house. Easier by paying my own bills and lessening the financial burden on my parents. It has been however a constant battle to gain any respect or even feel comfortable in my own house. It’s been like I am the outsider in the family yet I live underneath the same roof and walk on the same floor. Its saddening to think the only reason I am staying in my house is for my niece and my niece alone. I’ve been told to think of moving out but at the same time I may have to use my family for a little while longer since I plan to go back to school. It’s ridiculous for me to even think of getting my own place yet since I am up to my eyeballs in debt. In one surprising turn I got a credit card and am using it slowly to build back up my credit.
~In family news the same old same old. Fights with my mother fights with my sister who’s moved back in the house the same old deal over and over. I always wonder how long my patience is and I am finding out its quite long indeed. I have dealt with so much some of my friend’s wonder why I haven’t snapped. It’s a good question one I don’t have an answer to except possibly I have already lived with it so long it may be common place for me. A sad fact if it is true but that doesn’t mean it isn’t a truth. Sadly the same old fights and entanglements happen over and over and no difference in the way I respond help so I shall move on and simply bear that weight on my shoulders should I find a way out I would definitely take it.
~Moving from the family to relationships…what relationships lol? After Erica I did date one girl but that was short lived. I did afterwards “hook up” with another one but it was more based on mutual need and def attraction. For the most part all I have are memories of past relationships and people I’ve had fun with and the fun is always in my head man those were moments I won’t ever forget. But for now this is my update. Ill try to type in once a week to let people now I am alive. ‘Til then hope to hear from you and I hope to keep my promise of updates.