A entry finally at last hallelujah
Dear Die-ry,
~Well it has been seemingly a while since I've updated my journal at all with something close to a daily entry. I am going to try and change that starting today alone. The past few weeks have been rather monotonous to say the least. It's been busy with trying to find a job and trying to get hired. More or less the same thing with subtle differences. As I go into this lets just say that getting hired is hard especially around this time of year. The christmas season if I had started looking earlier would have been great. Most jobs hire for seasonal positions and it would give me at least a month of income I could use to pay off my rather large bill for college and my other expenses.
~It turns out I have some rather large bills tallying up to maybe 9,000 dollars not counting the school loans may shortly start coming as monthly bills. It rather sucks but I am condemned so some bad luck with jobs it seems. I am hoping that things change though since I need money and this will at least give me a little solace as I am doing something to improve my current situation. The other news thats rather good is simply that my father has agreed to pay for Driver's Ed so this way by the new year I will have a liscense. I am happy 'cuz it means even more a sense of independence of myself from my family. Other then this there really is nothing new but there is something worth rementioning my lil baby niece Leiyan Destiny Semidey is soooo cute hehe. Shes 21 inches 15 pounds and 1 month and 13 days old.
~I havent been doing much other then seeing my Psychiatrist to fix my small problem with depression I think I am sort of over it its just a bit of fixing time for me to deal with whatever old issues I had in order to fix them and get my life even more organized. But Ebay has been a great source of calming for me. Ive been buying magic cards so this is one way Ive got to entertain myself lol.
~I think there are somethings I was trying to escape from talking about but I think its time I face reality and talk about them slightly. I recently sent a letter to my Ex- girlfriend Erica telling her I no longer wanted to play the part of a friend when I couldn't bring myself to trust her at all. It was something I needed to do something for me to definitively put my foot down and say to myself I have moved on. It felt great and I felt washed from anymore responsibility to her that was no longer deserved. Now I can truly move on with the girl I am currently seeing named Cindi.
~I have my second date coming up soon so update on that when it happens hehe. Lastly today I saw my oldest ex Darcy while walking back from the post office it was odd to see her. I wanted to talk to her so bad but at the same time stopped myself. If fate allows us to bump into each other some other time I'll grow a pair and tell her "Hi!". I mean between me and her its always been odd but its no longer wanting her back but simply missing her friendship has been a difficult issue to deal with. Ill talk about this more some other time I want to be able to have material for another entry sometime soon hehe.
Sincerely,
Grave (aka) Hector
~Well it has been seemingly a while since I've updated my journal at all with something close to a daily entry. I am going to try and change that starting today alone. The past few weeks have been rather monotonous to say the least. It's been busy with trying to find a job and trying to get hired. More or less the same thing with subtle differences. As I go into this lets just say that getting hired is hard especially around this time of year. The christmas season if I had started looking earlier would have been great. Most jobs hire for seasonal positions and it would give me at least a month of income I could use to pay off my rather large bill for college and my other expenses.
~It turns out I have some rather large bills tallying up to maybe 9,000 dollars not counting the school loans may shortly start coming as monthly bills. It rather sucks but I am condemned so some bad luck with jobs it seems. I am hoping that things change though since I need money and this will at least give me a little solace as I am doing something to improve my current situation. The other news thats rather good is simply that my father has agreed to pay for Driver's Ed so this way by the new year I will have a liscense. I am happy 'cuz it means even more a sense of independence of myself from my family. Other then this there really is nothing new but there is something worth rementioning my lil baby niece Leiyan Destiny Semidey is soooo cute hehe. Shes 21 inches 15 pounds and 1 month and 13 days old.
~I havent been doing much other then seeing my Psychiatrist to fix my small problem with depression I think I am sort of over it its just a bit of fixing time for me to deal with whatever old issues I had in order to fix them and get my life even more organized. But Ebay has been a great source of calming for me. Ive been buying magic cards so this is one way Ive got to entertain myself lol.
~I think there are somethings I was trying to escape from talking about but I think its time I face reality and talk about them slightly. I recently sent a letter to my Ex- girlfriend Erica telling her I no longer wanted to play the part of a friend when I couldn't bring myself to trust her at all. It was something I needed to do something for me to definitively put my foot down and say to myself I have moved on. It felt great and I felt washed from anymore responsibility to her that was no longer deserved. Now I can truly move on with the girl I am currently seeing named Cindi.
~I have my second date coming up soon so update on that when it happens hehe. Lastly today I saw my oldest ex Darcy while walking back from the post office it was odd to see her. I wanted to talk to her so bad but at the same time stopped myself. If fate allows us to bump into each other some other time I'll grow a pair and tell her "Hi!". I mean between me and her its always been odd but its no longer wanting her back but simply missing her friendship has been a difficult issue to deal with. Ill talk about this more some other time I want to be able to have material for another entry sometime soon hehe.
Sincerely,
Grave (aka) Hector