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Well im home once more! my glands in my neck are swollen and i have a sinus infection so i have lots of dr apts this week - what fun! my docs are so stumped bout me that they are askin drs all over the country for help and all 3 of my docs had a meeting about me this morning - ill find out all that info tomm at roswell! KEEP YOUR FINGERS CROSSED that i can go up for post camp! i need to chill with the dennings, pete, laura and becca and of course lee and phil - i need to end my summer on a good note - i dont like the way i left things up there. there are so many people i need to say goodbye to and of course leave the park on a good note. if i do get to go back me and my cous kait are driving up in my car together! i REALLY hope it works out! i have a good feeling! and my feelings are ALWAYS right! lol!
fixed things with tina yesterday - thank god! i dont want my senior year to be filled with drama although there is one person who seems to thrive on it and will end up causing it all this year and if that happens ill bitch her into her place! lol!
im super fed up with my mom - she goes out for hours at a time and never tells us where shes goin - prob out for a smoke! and then when shes home shes too busy with her shit to take 2 secs for me! ya that sounds selfish but she always use to be around and care bout how i felt now shes too "busy" to even notice im there! today she came home from being out all day and bitched at me cause my camp stuff wasnt in the attic! sry mom i didnt feel good and didnt remember! we use to be so close and i feel like thats all detoriating. on sat night when i got home shes like tomm we will go and talk. did we talk? no! we never talk anymore and when we do we dont talk like we use to. im pissed and upset and i dont feel good and UGH! i dont even kno anymore! i thought camp would help me straighten out my head and be a good break but now i dont kno that it help cause i come home and something always goes wrong! i just cant win! but as lee, the best person ever, says u gotta look at the bright side of things! and with that i bid u adue!
<3kenzie