What a week...
So alot has happened this past week and nothing all at the same time. Well lets see it all pretty much boils down to a giant bunch of bullshit. I really don't have the time for it and nor do I need it. I will admit I made mistakes, I will admit I'm not the most caring, most loving, most considerate man on the face of the Earth. Most of the time I have a pretty shitty way of showing how I feel. If I'm mad its even harder to see how i feel because all I'll do is bitch and yell and scream. I CAN'T be wrong... thats my big flaw... I have to be right even when I'm wrong. But you know... its cool... you complain about losing a best friend and you did nothing to try to hold on to one. I was concerned... as one friend to another... I wanted to make sure you were okay but for that all I got was 3 hours of arguing and in all that time I never got out of you what happened. So whatever, I've had enough... you asked me to go and I'm going to...
Anyways, School has been good, finishing up some last minute papers/tests/etc its all been pretty good. I've had an up and down week overall. Alot of it was me being annoyed from arguing so much and shit but whatever. Hung out with Kym last night for awhile. Good time... she never fails to put a smile on my face and after the week I had she was a life saver. I've been working on some shit for guitar lately... playing and what not. I still havent picked classes for next semester which i should really do. Because well yeah I should.
My job... well Im going to be unemployed soon for a few months... but until then I'm trying to get as many hours as I possibly can. I need the money. I gotta buy some christmas gifts for people. I dont know who all I plan on buying for. But Family for sure... maybe a few close friends and what not. Depends on how much money I have and whether or not I think the person will appreciate it.
So I've decided that I need to stop worrying so much about everything and just enjoy myself. What happens happens... and what is meant to be will be. I've been trying so hard and so long to influence every outcome that its just sucha stressing mess. I stopped last night before I went to bed... after everything had settled down and you know what I realized. These should be the best years of my life. I should be out having fun with my friends and living it up. Instead I've spent my time worrying about other shit. I can't change the past... its not possible... but I know what I want for my future... I know some things I'd like to have in the future... and some people I want to be with me as I go. Life has its ups and downs... but its the lessons you learn in the down times that make the up times that much better. I remember reading in someones info... I forget whos... something about if you feel something is truly great. Then you are going to make mistakes. Because anything great is the result of alot of mistakes... or something like that ... whatever it was probably sounded alot more eloquent than that. But its true... I got where I am today by making mistakes... learning from them... or not learning from them. I've made tons of mistakes... one mistake in particular with one person that I dont know how many times I've made it. She says "a bajillion times" so yeah... but you know... I don't know how I can make things right... or even if I can... but I've got to try... because the greatest things come out of those mistakes... and if I can figure this out... this could be the best thing yet.
Well now that I've bitched, talked, and gotten really idealistic... I'm going to go. Peace
Anyways, School has been good, finishing up some last minute papers/tests/etc its all been pretty good. I've had an up and down week overall. Alot of it was me being annoyed from arguing so much and shit but whatever. Hung out with Kym last night for awhile. Good time... she never fails to put a smile on my face and after the week I had she was a life saver. I've been working on some shit for guitar lately... playing and what not. I still havent picked classes for next semester which i should really do. Because well yeah I should.
My job... well Im going to be unemployed soon for a few months... but until then I'm trying to get as many hours as I possibly can. I need the money. I gotta buy some christmas gifts for people. I dont know who all I plan on buying for. But Family for sure... maybe a few close friends and what not. Depends on how much money I have and whether or not I think the person will appreciate it.
So I've decided that I need to stop worrying so much about everything and just enjoy myself. What happens happens... and what is meant to be will be. I've been trying so hard and so long to influence every outcome that its just sucha stressing mess. I stopped last night before I went to bed... after everything had settled down and you know what I realized. These should be the best years of my life. I should be out having fun with my friends and living it up. Instead I've spent my time worrying about other shit. I can't change the past... its not possible... but I know what I want for my future... I know some things I'd like to have in the future... and some people I want to be with me as I go. Life has its ups and downs... but its the lessons you learn in the down times that make the up times that much better. I remember reading in someones info... I forget whos... something about if you feel something is truly great. Then you are going to make mistakes. Because anything great is the result of alot of mistakes... or something like that ... whatever it was probably sounded alot more eloquent than that. But its true... I got where I am today by making mistakes... learning from them... or not learning from them. I've made tons of mistakes... one mistake in particular with one person that I dont know how many times I've made it. She says "a bajillion times" so yeah... but you know... I don't know how I can make things right... or even if I can... but I've got to try... because the greatest things come out of those mistakes... and if I can figure this out... this could be the best thing yet.
Well now that I've bitched, talked, and gotten really idealistic... I'm going to go. Peace