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Christmas pretty much sucked, drove to my moms in ftlauderdale Christmas Eve, opened the obligatory couple of gifts, saw Chris (who I miss, and will be coming home later today), went to bed early on christmas eve, woke up, opened the same ol stale gifts one expects when your an adult (yawn), sat around, took a nap, woke up, ate dinner, and left to go home. I wish I could say I had a good time, but truth be told, I would have rather stayed home alone and forgotten all the christmas bullshit.
The only folks that called me to wish me a merry christmas were a few workers and friends in the business. No relatives called me to wish me a merry christmas, my cousins didnt call, my father didnt call, my aunts, nobody did. Sure, I called THEM and left a message, but no return call. Not one. Fuck em. My dad sends down a check with cash for Chris and I, which is nice, but im 32. At this point in my life, a phone call would mean alot more to me than some money. Maybe he could use the money and take a weekend out of his life and maybe fly down to see Chris and I for once. He did send Chris 3, yes THREE email greeting cards. I dont think he realizes they go through me to get to him because of the way the email is set up. Seems he is more interested in trying to have a relationship with his grandson he has met 2 times than he is with his only son. While I am on my rant, do you know that Chris was living with me for OVER A YEAR before my dad ever met him? The only reason he met him after a year is because I went to KC to visit relatives and he happened to be there too. I dont know about you folks reading this, but if Chris adopted a son and lived out of state, I would be on the next flight down to meet my new grandson. I always beleive and I still do that family comes first. I guess to my father, it doesnt, and if I said it didnt hurt me, I would be lying. He is more interested in being the chapter president of the "gold wing road riders" association I guess, that or he isnt proud enough of what I have done with my life, I dont know which it is, but I am done trying. In the last 8 months, he has called maybe 2 times. Both times, he asks for Chris, talks to him and thats it, like he wants nothing to do with me.
So merry fucking christmas everyone. To those that didnt go out of their way to call me, or didnt return my call to them, fuck you. To those that didnt bother one way or another, fuck you too. To those relatives who I considered close, who live up in Kansas and Missouri who didnt bother to call/send a card/or even send me an email, fuck you. I no longer consider myself a part of your family. Good bye and good riddance.
The only folks that called me to wish me a merry christmas were a few workers and friends in the business. No relatives called me to wish me a merry christmas, my cousins didnt call, my father didnt call, my aunts, nobody did. Sure, I called THEM and left a message, but no return call. Not one. Fuck em. My dad sends down a check with cash for Chris and I, which is nice, but im 32. At this point in my life, a phone call would mean alot more to me than some money. Maybe he could use the money and take a weekend out of his life and maybe fly down to see Chris and I for once. He did send Chris 3, yes THREE email greeting cards. I dont think he realizes they go through me to get to him because of the way the email is set up. Seems he is more interested in trying to have a relationship with his grandson he has met 2 times than he is with his only son. While I am on my rant, do you know that Chris was living with me for OVER A YEAR before my dad ever met him? The only reason he met him after a year is because I went to KC to visit relatives and he happened to be there too. I dont know about you folks reading this, but if Chris adopted a son and lived out of state, I would be on the next flight down to meet my new grandson. I always beleive and I still do that family comes first. I guess to my father, it doesnt, and if I said it didnt hurt me, I would be lying. He is more interested in being the chapter president of the "gold wing road riders" association I guess, that or he isnt proud enough of what I have done with my life, I dont know which it is, but I am done trying. In the last 8 months, he has called maybe 2 times. Both times, he asks for Chris, talks to him and thats it, like he wants nothing to do with me.
So merry fucking christmas everyone. To those that didnt go out of their way to call me, or didnt return my call to them, fuck you. To those that didnt bother one way or another, fuck you too. To those relatives who I considered close, who live up in Kansas and Missouri who didnt bother to call/send a card/or even send me an email, fuck you. I no longer consider myself a part of your family. Good bye and good riddance.