why?

[nw_mountie44]

Well as of right now I am I leaving for alabama in like 12 1/2 hours. Pretty cool I guess. I have a feeling im going to cry a whole lot while im down there, not only cuz its really sad of everything that happend but we just found out tonight that my grandpa is pretty much dying and the cancer doctor said they can't do anything about it. So as soon as I get off the bus from Alabama on Friday I will be getting in the car and driving 11 more hours to go see him. We don't know for sure if we're going but most likely we are. Money is tight so we all agreed to forfit christmas so we could travel there to see him. We all want to see him atleast one more time, and so he can see Gracie before he goes. So many things are going through my head right now. As soon as I thought things were going good, it just all comes crashing down again. Why him? What did he do to deserve something like this? All he wanted is to see is his kids and grandkids grow up the way that is right and to see us graduate and get married and start families of our own. Now he can't just because of an evil, stupid, uncurable disease that nobody can do anything about. Why do things happen like this? WHY! I honestly kind of feel bad about going to Alabama because my mom and dad spent a lot of money on my to go on this trip and getting things for the trip, when it could have been used to go to Iowa to see my mom's own father! But I don't know... I can't really do anything about it now.
Sorry to complain and bicker on about everything but... there's your update

see you guys in like 2 weeks.
I love you all very much.