life.
This summer has been a slow one at best. I'm definately getting ancy to do something. I played drums for the first time in almost two months the other day...to long. Feels like I'm giving up to much just to live freely. It basically comes down to never turning myself in, not going to college, not playing my drums, never do anything with my life or, come end of summer, i face the music and return home to indiana, go to college, play my drums, attempt some form of self-satisfaction. I need to learn how to live. I feel so unprepared for the world. If i hadn't been wrongfully imprisoned so many times these problems would be nonexistant. God damnit, I could go on and on but that's what i always do. I need good thoughts. I've been tring to quit cigarettes for about a week now. I only had one today. I honestly feel like shit but i've come this far so i can't see any sense in giving up. My life is at a sad state. I can't wait for the end of summer. I can't wait for alot of things such as finially getting into a band of choice. Finding musicians interested in making the same music is hard as hell, and depressing. I won't give up. although life is sad.