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All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for the daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
-Life
I've moved back to bremerton
it feels like that year when i was 18 except when i was 18 i had a car
I'm finding a bullshit job to pass the time
I say I'm saving for a car and paying my parents back
pfft
Who knows maybe this will be the year I actually stop blowing every dime on weed
i went 5 months.. does that count enough...
...
..
.
No..no it does not
trying to decide which racing thought to type
i miss IO
... i know its been nearly 1000 days since I've even seen her
and i feel like ill be an 80 year old man kicking myself in the replaced hip for never speaking to her again..at least not amicably
today is one of those days i wish someone would kill me
there doesnt even have to be a cool story to it
is it fucked up that there really was a moment when i choked a little on some broccoli earlier and afterwards i kinda just wish that would have been it all done no more worries
Theres so few people i even give a shit about and i doubt they even know it
and i doubt they even know it
and i doubt they even know it
and i doubt they even know it
and i doubt they even know it
and i doubt they even know it
..
i just said that to myself way more times than that
wawawa
still crying about io
...yep
the worste part about it is ive met PLENTY of girls since
i wish i could stop comparing them all
sure some are "better" in some aspects
well fuck all that none of that shit is important
basically what i want to write down is that
in the time it took me to vent about this shit i could have been bettering myself some other way
because bettering myself is somehow the way that i justify regretting basically my entire existence
but what then
what if i become the worlds strongest bravest richest man with the most beautiful wife
i still just don't think that i would be happy
like on Christmas
when i open stuff
i know theres this feeling your supposed to get
but i just dont i feel so indifferent
...and i refuse to take drugs to make me feel otherwise
mostly I only want one thing for Christmas
for anyone.. any person ive ever met to just try and talk to me
im always the one that says hello
fuck you i hate saying hello
i secretly pray you will say hi to me first
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for the daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
-Life
I've moved back to bremerton
it feels like that year when i was 18 except when i was 18 i had a car
I'm finding a bullshit job to pass the time
I say I'm saving for a car and paying my parents back
pfft
Who knows maybe this will be the year I actually stop blowing every dime on weed
i went 5 months.. does that count enough...
...
..
.
No..no it does not
trying to decide which racing thought to type
i miss IO
... i know its been nearly 1000 days since I've even seen her
and i feel like ill be an 80 year old man kicking myself in the replaced hip for never speaking to her again..at least not amicably
today is one of those days i wish someone would kill me
there doesnt even have to be a cool story to it
is it fucked up that there really was a moment when i choked a little on some broccoli earlier and afterwards i kinda just wish that would have been it all done no more worries
Theres so few people i even give a shit about and i doubt they even know it
and i doubt they even know it
and i doubt they even know it
and i doubt they even know it
and i doubt they even know it
and i doubt they even know it
..
i just said that to myself way more times than that
wawawa
still crying about io
...yep
the worste part about it is ive met PLENTY of girls since
i wish i could stop comparing them all
sure some are "better" in some aspects
well fuck all that none of that shit is important
basically what i want to write down is that
in the time it took me to vent about this shit i could have been bettering myself some other way
because bettering myself is somehow the way that i justify regretting basically my entire existence
but what then
what if i become the worlds strongest bravest richest man with the most beautiful wife
i still just don't think that i would be happy
like on Christmas
when i open stuff
i know theres this feeling your supposed to get
but i just dont i feel so indifferent
...and i refuse to take drugs to make me feel otherwise
mostly I only want one thing for Christmas
for anyone.. any person ive ever met to just try and talk to me
im always the one that says hello
fuck you i hate saying hello
i secretly pray you will say hi to me first