WHY? there has to be more to life than this.
sup guys. things areent going too great. im kinda in adepressed mood right now. just chillin here listening to FUSE. music is like a defining factor in my life, honestly my life revolves around music. wiothout the music, the sound the enjoyment the life the meaning, i dont know what i would do. so heres a list...im in a listy kinda mood too
people who have ALWAYS been a true friend to me:
-sarah barnett
-jason barentt
-Megan Smith
-A.J. Richards
-joanna olsen
-andrew davis
-....yea thats it...
reasons why i question my religion:
-why do only feel a stron gconnection every once in a while
-why are certain things considered a sin by The Church as soon as we find out they are bad. ie. drugs, smoking i mean i know my body is like gods ho[use and i should respect what he gave me and all, but jsut because we know more then we have more rules to follow? a phrase comes to mind "ignorance is bliss" although i hate ignorance it seems like a good sloution sometimes.
-if you sincerly believe then why do you have to do these certain things that will "get you to heaven"
- i really have no idea what im talking about its jsut my thoughts sometimes...its not really "reasons why i question my religion" its more of" questions i have about my religion
-reasons why i believe my religion is the true one
- other theories just dont make sense to me.
- darwin is an idiot
- it historically makes sense
maybe someday ill read the bible with the mind set that christianity is a bunch of bull, and ill try to prove it wrong in every possible way, to find out how true it is and find out about the Word of God for myself, ive never actually read any part of the bible, i just listen to people. and sometimes i think that(on purpose or not) im being informed wrongly. i want to do this for me. not for my friends (or lack thereof) my sister, my mom, grandparents etc. sometimes i feel like God is the only thing that keeps me going you know. like its the only hitng that keeps me ...living (dont take that in the wrong way) othertimes i feel like i need to be just like the rest of all the mindless hooligans that wander the earth. wanting things, searching for possession, going to work to get these things. i dont want to live my life like that. theres a format you grow up and go to school, you do good/bad,...whatever then you get a job and go there everyday to get money to give to the government and to get the htings that you think you need because it is the standard.
i feel like the only different person sometimes. like if everyone was sitting down facing toowards the wall , id be the person that is floating upside downs and the opposite direction. you know? like completely different. sometimes i do things jsut to be different , i wanna break free from the pack and be ME in anyway i can. i like to do things for me...i hope that doesnt sound selfish. i hate doing things for another person just because everyone else is doing it.
lyrics for right now...
-to hell with you and all ur friends
- wasting all my time
- show me how to live, show me how to feel
-when i fall down you pick me up, when i am dry you fill my cup, you are my all in all
im confused
theres got to be more to life than this, its got to be for realy, i just feel as if once im done with one things , theres just more to do, theres no gratification, no satisfaction in what i do. we just can be here for nothing (one more reason i believe in God. ) there has to be a porpose to life.
....share your thoughts, id love to hear.
sorry about my random thoughts, it probably doesnt make sense because im so contridictory, but at least im thinking about stuff like this instead of just lettin git slide you know?
-Tristan
people who have ALWAYS been a true friend to me:
-sarah barnett
-jason barentt
-Megan Smith
-A.J. Richards
-joanna olsen
-andrew davis
-....yea thats it...
reasons why i question my religion:
-why do only feel a stron gconnection every once in a while
-why are certain things considered a sin by The Church as soon as we find out they are bad. ie. drugs, smoking i mean i know my body is like gods ho[use and i should respect what he gave me and all, but jsut because we know more then we have more rules to follow? a phrase comes to mind "ignorance is bliss" although i hate ignorance it seems like a good sloution sometimes.
-if you sincerly believe then why do you have to do these certain things that will "get you to heaven"
- i really have no idea what im talking about its jsut my thoughts sometimes...its not really "reasons why i question my religion" its more of" questions i have about my religion
-reasons why i believe my religion is the true one
- other theories just dont make sense to me.
- darwin is an idiot
- it historically makes sense
maybe someday ill read the bible with the mind set that christianity is a bunch of bull, and ill try to prove it wrong in every possible way, to find out how true it is and find out about the Word of God for myself, ive never actually read any part of the bible, i just listen to people. and sometimes i think that(on purpose or not) im being informed wrongly. i want to do this for me. not for my friends (or lack thereof) my sister, my mom, grandparents etc. sometimes i feel like God is the only thing that keeps me going you know. like its the only hitng that keeps me ...living (dont take that in the wrong way) othertimes i feel like i need to be just like the rest of all the mindless hooligans that wander the earth. wanting things, searching for possession, going to work to get these things. i dont want to live my life like that. theres a format you grow up and go to school, you do good/bad,...whatever then you get a job and go there everyday to get money to give to the government and to get the htings that you think you need because it is the standard.
i feel like the only different person sometimes. like if everyone was sitting down facing toowards the wall , id be the person that is floating upside downs and the opposite direction. you know? like completely different. sometimes i do things jsut to be different , i wanna break free from the pack and be ME in anyway i can. i like to do things for me...i hope that doesnt sound selfish. i hate doing things for another person just because everyone else is doing it.
lyrics for right now...
-to hell with you and all ur friends
- wasting all my time
- show me how to live, show me how to feel
-when i fall down you pick me up, when i am dry you fill my cup, you are my all in all
im confused
theres got to be more to life than this, its got to be for realy, i just feel as if once im done with one things , theres just more to do, theres no gratification, no satisfaction in what i do. we just can be here for nothing (one more reason i believe in God. ) there has to be a porpose to life.
....share your thoughts, id love to hear.
sorry about my random thoughts, it probably doesnt make sense because im so contridictory, but at least im thinking about stuff like this instead of just lettin git slide you know?
-Tristan