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I received the picture I requested from Laura's mother today. This is a picture from when she was still a baby. Her mother had it on display at Laura's funeral, and when I saw it broke my heart. Her features are so distinct, and they reflected strongly even so young. Those bright eyes and her genuine smile are the things that stick with me the most.
I miss her so much. If I can manage to remain distracted for a while, my heart doesn't ache so much. A friend asked me last week, "About how often do you think about her"? My reply was something like, "It would be easier to measure how often I am not thinking about her". I've been working all sorts of things to preserve her memory, and pay tribute to her. Most of it will probably not come to fruition for some time, but I work on it when I can.
I'm going to scan all the photos of her soon for everyone that wanted some of them. I will post high resolution in case you want to print them. I wanted to share this one because it is just so precious. Talking about Laura, and everything that happened, doesn't overwhelm me with sadness. But seeing pictures like this one just make me squirm in my gut, and serve to remind me just how much I miss her.