i just can't stop eating them...
ugh i can't believe how much sugar i've consumed today. i just got completely lost in myself reading this article on the origins of christmas/christmas traditions, and how other country's celebrate christmas. very interesting and informative.
http://encarta.msn.com/encyclopedia_761556859/Christmas.html
now that i got all my new stuff...i have this sudden urge to clean everything ['out with the old, in with the new']. tomorrow i hit the mall [i know....dumb idea] to return some stuff advantage of some gift cards, make a deposit w/ christmas money, and get on oil change. i guess i'm headed right for the 'new year's' spirit. either that...or i just can't watch any more movies consecutively [i did 'miracle on 34th street' and 'orange county' before my legs went numb]. but that's just me i guess...no matter how relaxing things are...i'm always ready to get up and get going [until i get bored with that....or i get tired].
so neways....what to do...what to do. it's kind of a business relationship-political, that is. he's number one to me [meaning...i get to do whatever i want] when i'm number one to him. meaning...i suck it up.....go to every mass i can possibly go to...ignore the fact that practicing is obviously 'overrated' and that there's no time for it...and just shut my mouth, not thiinking about it much during the school year. yep. i only REALLY think about it when i'm not in school. is that because i'm bored? i think so. i mean i notice things all year round...but i don't care enough to get involved in it.
the business relationship thing is good.....but i guess i thought we were buds....that we'd have each other's backs [meaning...no empty promises...just honesty. can u do me a favor...how bout offering me a job?? how about just being honest when u don't want to hire me??] i don't work there....i've volunteered my time there for over 5 years. we both have seen the band mutate and warp into all kinds of ugly and magnificent forms. i think we used to be buds. i honestly think this is new...and i can't blame myself for it. life goes on...i take it for what it's worth. i stick to my guns, don't get walked on, don't commit if he doesn't and don't go out of my way for anything. que sera sera.
i feel better now after getting all that out. neways...if you actually read this entry...you're probably asleep in a puddle of drool with bits of wrapping paper and christmas cookie crumbes floating in it.
i really did get some unbelievable presents, and i'm extremely thankful for these kind loving people [u know who u are] that have shown me their utmost generosity and thoughlessness this year. it was all to make me happy. all to make me smile. all a little thought of me. happy christmas.
http://encarta.msn.com/encyclopedia_761556859/Christmas.html
now that i got all my new stuff...i have this sudden urge to clean everything ['out with the old, in with the new']. tomorrow i hit the mall [i know....dumb idea] to return some stuff advantage of some gift cards, make a deposit w/ christmas money, and get on oil change. i guess i'm headed right for the 'new year's' spirit. either that...or i just can't watch any more movies consecutively [i did 'miracle on 34th street' and 'orange county' before my legs went numb]. but that's just me i guess...no matter how relaxing things are...i'm always ready to get up and get going [until i get bored with that....or i get tired].
so neways....what to do...what to do. it's kind of a business relationship-political, that is. he's number one to me [meaning...i get to do whatever i want] when i'm number one to him. meaning...i suck it up.....go to every mass i can possibly go to...ignore the fact that practicing is obviously 'overrated' and that there's no time for it...and just shut my mouth, not thiinking about it much during the school year. yep. i only REALLY think about it when i'm not in school. is that because i'm bored? i think so. i mean i notice things all year round...but i don't care enough to get involved in it.
the business relationship thing is good.....but i guess i thought we were buds....that we'd have each other's backs [meaning...no empty promises...just honesty. can u do me a favor...how bout offering me a job?? how about just being honest when u don't want to hire me??] i don't work there....i've volunteered my time there for over 5 years. we both have seen the band mutate and warp into all kinds of ugly and magnificent forms. i think we used to be buds. i honestly think this is new...and i can't blame myself for it. life goes on...i take it for what it's worth. i stick to my guns, don't get walked on, don't commit if he doesn't and don't go out of my way for anything. que sera sera.
i feel better now after getting all that out. neways...if you actually read this entry...you're probably asleep in a puddle of drool with bits of wrapping paper and christmas cookie crumbes floating in it.
i really did get some unbelievable presents, and i'm extremely thankful for these kind loving people [u know who u are] that have shown me their utmost generosity and thoughlessness this year. it was all to make me happy. all to make me smile. all a little thought of me. happy christmas.