whats going on?
well i have no clue whats going on in my life right now, at least with ash. she reasures me that we are working on things but it doesnt seem like it. i know that this summer we wont se much of each other but im afraid she will like that too much and want to break up. i love her so much, i know ive done some stupid things but i hope that she can look past that and see my undying love for her. she says obie isnt a problem but i dont know, she talks to him more than me and, that bothers me. i get the feeling from time to time that she wants to be with him more than me. im so scared to what is going to happen to us during and after her stay in oregon with him. i know i shouldnt feel like this but she wont listen to me. she blocks of my concerne becouse she says that she is doing what she wants. im all for that, but this guy has known her longer and he always seems to be better than me. she say she wont do long term relationships but she is going to him for two weeks. i wish she would just pick me or him, and that be it it would make things simpler on me couse then i would know what she really wants.well i hope things do get better hunny, i love you and your in my dreams bebe.