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The people here piss me off!! No one does what they say they will... no one follows through!! It is like they honestly don’t care about anyone other than themselves!! They say they are going to do something and then they flake out without ever once considering what that might do to the other person... I am here for only two more days and there are things that I want to do before I leave... It is really frustrating… I mean the entire time I’ve been here my days have been filled with empty promises… I cannot trust anyone by their word anymore-because if I do I end up pissed off when I find out they are just like everyone else.. Like Jo- she said she would go to Mumbles with me at 2… it takes an hour to walk there and I want to do some shopping-and its 222 and I asked her- when are we going? And she was like- well I’ve got to sort out my clothes, and then have something to eat… omg! It really frustrates me!! It is like this entire country is made up of people who don’t follow through… they say one thing but do something completely opposite!! I am sooo freakin tired of it!! It just reinforces how happy I am to be going home… although I’ve had plenty of promises that are never held… but at least not everyone does it… I mean how can people not think of others? Why say you are going to do something and then end up doing something completely different? Why not just be honest from the very start… don’t just agree to something if you think it will make them happy only to flake out later- be honest from the start!! Eh it really really makes me mad!! I can’t handle it!! I’ve dealt with it for 3 months!! Everyone here says they will do something- but when it comes down to it, they really wont… It is frustrating because I can’t trust anyone!! Man I am thankful I am going home!! I mean I sat around all day because Jo said she wanted to go to Mumbles… and now she is putting it off for another hour.. by the time we get there I’ll hardly have any time to do what I want to do… I mean I have no problem going places alone- I even told her this morning that I could go alone if she didn’t really want to come… but no-she insisted she would go at 2… bullshit!! Everyone here is full of bullshit!! Lies and empty promises and disappointment-that is what my life here has come down to… It really really annoys me!! Whatever!!
Anyhow-what did I do today? Got up- went to breakfast- came back to my room and read through 4 of the 5 essays for the last time- and made coverpages and crap like that… then I went through my final paper and did the referencing… I am pretty much done with everything… nothing worthy of stress-haha! I cannot wait to get home!!
When I talked to my dad today he started off with “I have to warn you…” oh great… anyhow he just wanted to tell me that not much has changed.. Heather is still lazy and does nothing.. her and Josh still fight like crazy.. and the kids still don’t do as she says… I have come to the conclusion that they don’t listen when she yells because she yells all the time… they see nothing different by it and don’t realize that she is doing it because she is angry with them or whatever-so they just carry on with whatever they are doing… a horrible cycle… eh… I guess Heather has been really cold towards my dad lately- he thinks it is because he got on her case about the house being a mess and what not… I just don’t get how they can not be grateful for all that my dad is doing for them… he owned his own house- something he has wanted forever- and is selling it to move into a house where once again we will be renting so that there is more room for them… me and my dad don’t need more room- we were fine.. the move is for them and they act totally ungrateful.. and I told my dad that I am not going to get stuck packing everything like always… I will be coming home- and I will be tired- and I will want to see my friends and family - not spend all my time inside the house packing… there is no reason why they can’t start without me!! It is like no one in my family can do anything without me!! I mean they even had originally put off the move until the 21st so that I could do all the packing when I came home and take care of the move… now they think- hey she has a week- she can handle it… it pisses me off… I guess I just feel like no one really cares about me or what I go through or my thoughts and concerns and what not… it is all about everyone else… I am just really sick of it!!
I am tired of feeling unappreciated, and that my feelings don’t matter…
Eh… now I’ve got myself in a horrible mood…
Anyhow-what did I do today? Got up- went to breakfast- came back to my room and read through 4 of the 5 essays for the last time- and made coverpages and crap like that… then I went through my final paper and did the referencing… I am pretty much done with everything… nothing worthy of stress-haha! I cannot wait to get home!!
When I talked to my dad today he started off with “I have to warn you…” oh great… anyhow he just wanted to tell me that not much has changed.. Heather is still lazy and does nothing.. her and Josh still fight like crazy.. and the kids still don’t do as she says… I have come to the conclusion that they don’t listen when she yells because she yells all the time… they see nothing different by it and don’t realize that she is doing it because she is angry with them or whatever-so they just carry on with whatever they are doing… a horrible cycle… eh… I guess Heather has been really cold towards my dad lately- he thinks it is because he got on her case about the house being a mess and what not… I just don’t get how they can not be grateful for all that my dad is doing for them… he owned his own house- something he has wanted forever- and is selling it to move into a house where once again we will be renting so that there is more room for them… me and my dad don’t need more room- we were fine.. the move is for them and they act totally ungrateful.. and I told my dad that I am not going to get stuck packing everything like always… I will be coming home- and I will be tired- and I will want to see my friends and family - not spend all my time inside the house packing… there is no reason why they can’t start without me!! It is like no one in my family can do anything without me!! I mean they even had originally put off the move until the 21st so that I could do all the packing when I came home and take care of the move… now they think- hey she has a week- she can handle it… it pisses me off… I guess I just feel like no one really cares about me or what I go through or my thoughts and concerns and what not… it is all about everyone else… I am just really sick of it!!
I am tired of feeling unappreciated, and that my feelings don’t matter…
Eh… now I’ve got myself in a horrible mood…