I'M NOT DEAD
Okay, so, woah. Lots has happened since we last spoke, and I've been crazily busy what with exams and revision and just everything. But now I only have two exams left, both of which are the easiest out of any exams I've had to do. This means, much less revision, so I now actually have a life! Although that kinda sucks, cos it takes away my excuse for why I've been a lazy sod.
I can't do the dishwasher, I'm REVISING.
No, mum, I can't tidy my room, my education comes first, don't you think?
How dare you ask me to feed the dogs! I have my exams to think about! OH!
Yeah, I totally used all of them frequently over the last few weeks. Ah well. Anyway, there's so much to teeeeell, so I'm splitting it up into cuts for your flist's sake.
So I got every Wednesday to get weight, meaning I went tonight. This week I'd lost 6 and a half pounds, meaning I got my 1 stone sticker, was slimmer of the week, and have now lost 1stone and 1 and a half pounds since May 2. I'm really proud of myself, because it hasn't been a huge difference. I mean, after exams if I went into town, I still ate complete shit. And when we went out for meals, the same applied, but I can say that my attitude towards food is much better now. Before it was there to fill boredom, and to make me feel better. Now, don't get me wrong, I still use it for the exact same thing, but I'm slowly changing my view of food over time.
My plan is to be my desired look by the time I go to Uni, so I have about 2 years to lose another so many stone. Not surprisingly, no one is finding out my weight. Although my brother amused me when he came up to me randomly and asked me how much I weighed, and when I refused he got all offended. It was very cute.
I'm just scared that if I do this and then go to Uni, I'll put all the weight back on. I mean, it's widely known that Student living isn't exactly The Ritz, and they live off Pot Noodles and Walkers Crisps. But to try to solve this, I'm trying to learn now how to cook, so when I bugger off to Uni I'll hopefully be able to make my diet a little healthier. I dunno, I'm just going to take everyday as it comes, I suppose. Anyway, main point is:
Lots of weight lost, way-hay for me!
So, we'd just been having a long chat about my exams, and where my mum and dad see me in 10, 15 years time. It had been very ego boosting to me, I have to say, which I need just before my exams started.
Anyway, so I ask my Grandad if he thinks I'll be successful in life, and it's just me, him and my dad in room. And he turns to me, looks me in the eye, and says completely seriously, "only if you slim down, Emma." The room fell into silence for about 10 seconds as we all tried to comprehend what it was that he'd just said. I burst into laughter, saying "at least he's honest," but my dad went crazy. He started shouting at my Grandad about how I have been losing weight, and even if I didn't it wouldn't matter, etc. For those who don't know, me and my dad don't get on. We don't speak usually, and we haven't been close since August 2006.
We used to be best friends, and then long story short, he had an affair. All my family have gotten over it, and be it right or wrong, I still haven't. I don't think I will ever get over, as much as I'm just going to have to forget about it one day, because if I don't I literally won't have a father any more. You know how girls always imagine their father walking them down the aisle, and being there when their babies born, anxiously waiting outside the room? Well unless we somehow meant the big crack in our relationship, I can't see me having that. We can bond, but the only thing we ever bond over is how mentally unstable my mother [his wife] is. God, I sound like something out of Eastenders.
Basically, if you ask, which I don't mind if you do, I'll tell you. Otherwise, it would take my 3 hours to explain, even briefly, the inner workings of my family. Let me leave it at that my family has deep problems and cracks, so much so that I can see myself in 20 ears time having cut off all ties with them.
Much better than expected, it has to be said.
English Literature:
Could have gone better, and my To Kill A Mockingbird question was so easy, that it make it very hard to answer. It was such a fantastically easy question, that it become really difficult, and I can see myself having messed it up. The poetry was easy though, which is pretty good considering I lost my poetry Anthology, and so only saw the poems the day before the exam.
English Language:
It went really well, on both sections, but I wasn't really surprised. English Language is an easy subject, and I'm just naturally good at English. So for both English I'm expecting good grades :)
Maths:
Considering I got a U on the mock, I'm pretty sure [98%] that I did really well on these. I was predicted an A at the beginning of year 10, but then I was absent due to family stuff meaning I lost so much maths work, not to mention the teacher hated me [although my mum and brother did make him cry on parents evening]. But both papers were really easy, and I'd been doing at least 1 practice paper a day for about 2 weeks previous, so I was in good practice.
Science:
The first paper was painfully horrible, so much so that I started crying in the middle of the exam. Now, I cannot expect all the blame. I, frankly, blame the damn OESTROGEN. It's my hormones fault, not mine. I cannot control my inner cry baby. Anyway, it wasn't like it was intense sobbing, just a few stray tears, complimented by a wtf? look off one of the examiners.
But the second paper, which I took today, was easy. It had all the questions I could answer, and even a bit at the beginning that was SO EASY because I knew it due to Geography. So yay for that, too.
Geograph:
Meh. It could have gone worse, but the paper was written so irritatingly. It's hard to explain, and I suppose you'd only get it if you did Geography, but the paper was worded in such a frustrating way. It was like they were all the same questions, only so different. It was just horrible, but I'm pretty sure I did okay.
Philosphy & Ethics:
Only done one out of the two papers, but it was really easy. But I had one of the examiners come up behind me and hum. She actually make a humming noise, and just stood there. If it had happened to anyone else, I would laugh my arse off, but the fact it happened to me just made it all the more fantastic.
But, funny fact: My mate Lauren forgot to write about science in the religion and science section. I couldn't stop laughing. Well, maybe you had to be there. Anyway.
Drama:
Still got to do, and really worried I might not be able to maintain the A*. But I'll give it a damn good shot.
ICT:
LOL WHAT
I haven't seen the finale, but I know it had a cliffhanger. All I wanna know is, were Veronica and Logan together at the end of it all? Because I really hope they were, even though if not it would be perfect for their relationship. Still, they were so perfect for each other. I haven't watched it for a while, but I still rate their 'ship as being one of the bests of any fandom. I hope it worked out in the end, but I have a feeling it didn't.
Also, how annoying is it that they decided to place the seed of Mac/Dick at the end, and then cancel it? All my 'shipper dreams looked within reach, and then BAM, gone. They were the only ship I had at the time that I loved, without actually watching any of season 3 except for their two scenes.
Is fucking amazing. I am in love with Martha, and her line "I have to work in a shop, to support him!" It was just perfect and so Martha. I don't get all the hate on the girl, I mean I'll be honest, I've seen Rose and I don't like her. She always seemed so childish and immature, especially when compared to the Doctor. Martha seems much more responsible, and she can accept that when things fuck it, it isn't always the Doctor's fault. Martha seems like she's lived life and knows what it's about, and how rough it can be, where Rose came across as someone who wanted life to be all Rosey Posey. Martha is a realist, whereas Rose was an Idealist. I haven't seen any of season 2, so I can't judge Rose fully, but from what I have seen this is what I think.
How awesome does Utopia look, though? I really can't wait!
I do not care if the boy is gay. I WANT THE BOY.
So, yeah. Life out of home is good, friends wise and school wise. Anyway, I better go. I have to not get up early tomorrow to do anything, and I need a lot of rest to do this. Love you all.
I can't do the dishwasher, I'm REVISING.
No, mum, I can't tidy my room, my education comes first, don't you think?
How dare you ask me to feed the dogs! I have my exams to think about! OH!
Yeah, I totally used all of them frequently over the last few weeks. Ah well. Anyway, there's so much to teeeeell, so I'm splitting it up into cuts for your flist's sake.
So I got every Wednesday to get weight, meaning I went tonight. This week I'd lost 6 and a half pounds, meaning I got my 1 stone sticker, was slimmer of the week, and have now lost 1stone and 1 and a half pounds since May 2. I'm really proud of myself, because it hasn't been a huge difference. I mean, after exams if I went into town, I still ate complete shit. And when we went out for meals, the same applied, but I can say that my attitude towards food is much better now. Before it was there to fill boredom, and to make me feel better. Now, don't get me wrong, I still use it for the exact same thing, but I'm slowly changing my view of food over time.
My plan is to be my desired look by the time I go to Uni, so I have about 2 years to lose another so many stone. Not surprisingly, no one is finding out my weight. Although my brother amused me when he came up to me randomly and asked me how much I weighed, and when I refused he got all offended. It was very cute.
I'm just scared that if I do this and then go to Uni, I'll put all the weight back on. I mean, it's widely known that Student living isn't exactly The Ritz, and they live off Pot Noodles and Walkers Crisps. But to try to solve this, I'm trying to learn now how to cook, so when I bugger off to Uni I'll hopefully be able to make my diet a little healthier. I dunno, I'm just going to take everyday as it comes, I suppose. Anyway, main point is:
Lots of weight lost, way-hay for me!
So, we'd just been having a long chat about my exams, and where my mum and dad see me in 10, 15 years time. It had been very ego boosting to me, I have to say, which I need just before my exams started.
Anyway, so I ask my Grandad if he thinks I'll be successful in life, and it's just me, him and my dad in room. And he turns to me, looks me in the eye, and says completely seriously, "only if you slim down, Emma." The room fell into silence for about 10 seconds as we all tried to comprehend what it was that he'd just said. I burst into laughter, saying "at least he's honest," but my dad went crazy. He started shouting at my Grandad about how I have been losing weight, and even if I didn't it wouldn't matter, etc. For those who don't know, me and my dad don't get on. We don't speak usually, and we haven't been close since August 2006.
We used to be best friends, and then long story short, he had an affair. All my family have gotten over it, and be it right or wrong, I still haven't. I don't think I will ever get over, as much as I'm just going to have to forget about it one day, because if I don't I literally won't have a father any more. You know how girls always imagine their father walking them down the aisle, and being there when their babies born, anxiously waiting outside the room? Well unless we somehow meant the big crack in our relationship, I can't see me having that. We can bond, but the only thing we ever bond over is how mentally unstable my mother [his wife] is. God, I sound like something out of Eastenders.
Basically, if you ask, which I don't mind if you do, I'll tell you. Otherwise, it would take my 3 hours to explain, even briefly, the inner workings of my family. Let me leave it at that my family has deep problems and cracks, so much so that I can see myself in 20 ears time having cut off all ties with them.
Much better than expected, it has to be said.
English Literature:
Could have gone better, and my To Kill A Mockingbird question was so easy, that it make it very hard to answer. It was such a fantastically easy question, that it become really difficult, and I can see myself having messed it up. The poetry was easy though, which is pretty good considering I lost my poetry Anthology, and so only saw the poems the day before the exam.
English Language:
It went really well, on both sections, but I wasn't really surprised. English Language is an easy subject, and I'm just naturally good at English. So for both English I'm expecting good grades :)
Maths:
Considering I got a U on the mock, I'm pretty sure [98%] that I did really well on these. I was predicted an A at the beginning of year 10, but then I was absent due to family stuff meaning I lost so much maths work, not to mention the teacher hated me [although my mum and brother did make him cry on parents evening]. But both papers were really easy, and I'd been doing at least 1 practice paper a day for about 2 weeks previous, so I was in good practice.
Science:
The first paper was painfully horrible, so much so that I started crying in the middle of the exam. Now, I cannot expect all the blame. I, frankly, blame the damn OESTROGEN. It's my hormones fault, not mine. I cannot control my inner cry baby. Anyway, it wasn't like it was intense sobbing, just a few stray tears, complimented by a wtf? look off one of the examiners.
But the second paper, which I took today, was easy. It had all the questions I could answer, and even a bit at the beginning that was SO EASY because I knew it due to Geography. So yay for that, too.
Geograph:
Meh. It could have gone worse, but the paper was written so irritatingly. It's hard to explain, and I suppose you'd only get it if you did Geography, but the paper was worded in such a frustrating way. It was like they were all the same questions, only so different. It was just horrible, but I'm pretty sure I did okay.
Philosphy & Ethics:
Only done one out of the two papers, but it was really easy. But I had one of the examiners come up behind me and hum. She actually make a humming noise, and just stood there. If it had happened to anyone else, I would laugh my arse off, but the fact it happened to me just made it all the more fantastic.
But, funny fact: My mate Lauren forgot to write about science in the religion and science section. I couldn't stop laughing. Well, maybe you had to be there. Anyway.
Drama:
Still got to do, and really worried I might not be able to maintain the A*. But I'll give it a damn good shot.
ICT:
LOL WHAT
I haven't seen the finale, but I know it had a cliffhanger. All I wanna know is, were Veronica and Logan together at the end of it all? Because I really hope they were, even though if not it would be perfect for their relationship. Still, they were so perfect for each other. I haven't watched it for a while, but I still rate their 'ship as being one of the bests of any fandom. I hope it worked out in the end, but I have a feeling it didn't.
Also, how annoying is it that they decided to place the seed of Mac/Dick at the end, and then cancel it? All my 'shipper dreams looked within reach, and then BAM, gone. They were the only ship I had at the time that I loved, without actually watching any of season 3 except for their two scenes.
Is fucking amazing. I am in love with Martha, and her line "I have to work in a shop, to support him!" It was just perfect and so Martha. I don't get all the hate on the girl, I mean I'll be honest, I've seen Rose and I don't like her. She always seemed so childish and immature, especially when compared to the Doctor. Martha seems much more responsible, and she can accept that when things fuck it, it isn't always the Doctor's fault. Martha seems like she's lived life and knows what it's about, and how rough it can be, where Rose came across as someone who wanted life to be all Rosey Posey. Martha is a realist, whereas Rose was an Idealist. I haven't seen any of season 2, so I can't judge Rose fully, but from what I have seen this is what I think.
How awesome does Utopia look, though? I really can't wait!
I do not care if the boy is gay. I WANT THE BOY.
So, yeah. Life out of home is good, friends wise and school wise. Anyway, I better go. I have to not get up early tomorrow to do anything, and I need a lot of rest to do this. Love you all.