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Everyone go listen to Regina Spektor.
Soooo. I'm still in the 120s, because I'm not feeling The Pressure of the Thin much recently. I don't know if this is what's supposed to happen after recovery or what, but I prefer not to be a fatso. It's kind of interesting to stay at one weight so long, though. I know that if I started WANTING to recover and stuff I could get out of this now. But, I'm pushing it away. I'm fucking myself, and I know it, just like I knew it when I made a decision to lose weight until I could not lose anymore without dying, and I did.
"I've gone away/Don't call me don't write"
Soooo. I'm still in the 120s, because I'm not feeling The Pressure of the Thin much recently. I don't know if this is what's supposed to happen after recovery or what, but I prefer not to be a fatso. It's kind of interesting to stay at one weight so long, though. I know that if I started WANTING to recover and stuff I could get out of this now. But, I'm pushing it away. I'm fucking myself, and I know it, just like I knew it when I made a decision to lose weight until I could not lose anymore without dying, and I did.
"I've gone away/Don't call me don't write"