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i don't know what it is about writing about myself that makes me hate myself more. here i am looking at all my skills and accomplishments and seeing how talented i am...and how do i respond--i start crying. i'm just sitting here at my computer trying to write this personal statement and tears start pouring down my face.
i'm not entirely sure it has to do with the statement itself. maybe it's just the stress behind the letter...the stress of the choosing, applying, and competing for an internship. or all the built up stress from school recently. or the fact that i feel so desperately alone, like no one cares or has time for me. it's sort of like i'm a kid's imaginary friend who he can see and play with when he wants, but when he's too busy with real people or more exciting things that friend doesn't exist.
i'm not entirely sure it has to do with the statement itself. maybe it's just the stress behind the letter...the stress of the choosing, applying, and competing for an internship. or all the built up stress from school recently. or the fact that i feel so desperately alone, like no one cares or has time for me. it's sort of like i'm a kid's imaginary friend who he can see and play with when he wants, but when he's too busy with real people or more exciting things that friend doesn't exist.