Bittersweet memories, that's all I'm taking with me.
Well, it's been a while, hasn't it.
So long in fact that I only have four more days of high school. And I know where I'm going to college. And I can't believe how quickly and overwhelimingly things are coming to an end.
I took my very last AP exam today. They're all done, and they don't matter, and nothing does anymore. Just these last moments and the people in them and everything that needs to be said.
Senior awards night was last night, and while the event itself wasn't anything exceptional I couldn't have asked for a better night. With our families and my best friend in the world there, it was so nice to watch all of my best friends get honored for the stuff they've accomplished. And we filled a table. It took four years, but we filled a table. And looking around it I knew that everyone sitting there was so great, and that I was so glad to have met them and gotten to know them and will get to graduate with them.
There were a lot of things, in high school, in life so far, that I wanted and never got. And for once that's okay with me. Life has given me so many rich experiences, so much to look back on and revel in. At the same time, as my world is moving irreversibly forward faster than I can comprehend it, there's one thing holding me back. Against all of my predictions and all of my logical thinking, I did fall for somebody this year. I don't know why, but I did. I really care about him. And it won't ever be anything. But maybe by the time I'll leave he'll know how I feel. That's enough.
I'm leaving now to hang out with Deb until the series finale of Gilmore Girls. I know how trivial it is to attach a TV show to your life but it's so weird. This show has taken me through middle and high school, and now just as this part of my life is ending the show is ending for good. And I actually cried when Lorelai was singing to Luke, and when Logan left Rory. And they're not real people but they might as well be, honestly. My mom is glad today is the finale because she said it would be too hard to watch it when I'm gone.
All good things must come to an end I guess.
Sara.
So long in fact that I only have four more days of high school. And I know where I'm going to college. And I can't believe how quickly and overwhelimingly things are coming to an end.
I took my very last AP exam today. They're all done, and they don't matter, and nothing does anymore. Just these last moments and the people in them and everything that needs to be said.
Senior awards night was last night, and while the event itself wasn't anything exceptional I couldn't have asked for a better night. With our families and my best friend in the world there, it was so nice to watch all of my best friends get honored for the stuff they've accomplished. And we filled a table. It took four years, but we filled a table. And looking around it I knew that everyone sitting there was so great, and that I was so glad to have met them and gotten to know them and will get to graduate with them.
There were a lot of things, in high school, in life so far, that I wanted and never got. And for once that's okay with me. Life has given me so many rich experiences, so much to look back on and revel in. At the same time, as my world is moving irreversibly forward faster than I can comprehend it, there's one thing holding me back. Against all of my predictions and all of my logical thinking, I did fall for somebody this year. I don't know why, but I did. I really care about him. And it won't ever be anything. But maybe by the time I'll leave he'll know how I feel. That's enough.
I'm leaving now to hang out with Deb until the series finale of Gilmore Girls. I know how trivial it is to attach a TV show to your life but it's so weird. This show has taken me through middle and high school, and now just as this part of my life is ending the show is ending for good. And I actually cried when Lorelai was singing to Luke, and when Logan left Rory. And they're not real people but they might as well be, honestly. My mom is glad today is the finale because she said it would be too hard to watch it when I'm gone.
All good things must come to an end I guess.
Sara.