It's been a long time...
Well, I know it's been a long time since I've posted...I've just not been in the mood to let my feelings out. Well, actually, I have been letting my feelings out...at Chris. He looked at me the other day, and said, "If I EVER see Heather anywhere, I'm jsut going to tell that girl to CALL YOU!" I guess I jsut need to shutup about Heather to him. I know he gets sick of hearing about her. But, I don't really want to keep that shit inside, ya know?
So, I saw Heather last night. She called me while I was on my way to Jackson to go hang with Cade. She left a message on my cell that her mom was making her get her ring back from me. So, I called her back, and I told her that I'd meet her in town later that night. When I got back into Henderson, I gave her a call, and she said she was at McDonald's. So, I went up there, and she came out and got her ring from me. We talked for a couple of minutes, then she said she had to go back inside, and eat with her friends. I said okay, and was about to leave when she asked if I'd stay in town, so I said yes, and told her I was going to go to my mom's office. She came up there a little while later, and picked me up. We drove around, and talked for a while. I still don't know a damn thing. She just seems so damned confused. She's talking like she never wants to get married, because "people change how they feel about people." So, she'll just be single the rest of her life. How sad. I don't know what to think of her...I really don't.
When I got home, my mom and I were talking about Heather and everything. My mom looked at me, and said that Heather's mom was trying to buy Heather. I was like, wow. You've just said the same thing that I've been thinking for weeks now. I mean, Heather got a new car, while her mom is still driving a piece of shit. Her mom gave her a hell of a lot of money to go to St. Louis this spring break. Her mom bought her one of those color flip phones. She's trying to buy her, and Heather's buying into it. I don't want to compete with that, because I just shouldn't fucking have to. So, fuck it. If Heather never wants to realize just how good we had it, then all I can say to that is fuck it. She tried telling me that we had so many problems. I was like, what problems, and all she could tell me was we had some trust issues. Big whoop. Of course we'd have trust issues. Her parents got divorced, she's been cheated on, and my parents divorced because my mom was cheating on him, and I've been cheated on myself. So, of course we'd have some trust issues. But, shit, that kinda shit can be fixed. I asked my therapist if that could be fixed, and he looked at me, and said hell yeah.
Anyways, I'm sick of typing, so I'm gonna go to bed. I had a really long day today, and tomorrow's gonna be the same. So, night, and maybe I'll post sometime in the near future!
So, I saw Heather last night. She called me while I was on my way to Jackson to go hang with Cade. She left a message on my cell that her mom was making her get her ring back from me. So, I called her back, and I told her that I'd meet her in town later that night. When I got back into Henderson, I gave her a call, and she said she was at McDonald's. So, I went up there, and she came out and got her ring from me. We talked for a couple of minutes, then she said she had to go back inside, and eat with her friends. I said okay, and was about to leave when she asked if I'd stay in town, so I said yes, and told her I was going to go to my mom's office. She came up there a little while later, and picked me up. We drove around, and talked for a while. I still don't know a damn thing. She just seems so damned confused. She's talking like she never wants to get married, because "people change how they feel about people." So, she'll just be single the rest of her life. How sad. I don't know what to think of her...I really don't.
When I got home, my mom and I were talking about Heather and everything. My mom looked at me, and said that Heather's mom was trying to buy Heather. I was like, wow. You've just said the same thing that I've been thinking for weeks now. I mean, Heather got a new car, while her mom is still driving a piece of shit. Her mom gave her a hell of a lot of money to go to St. Louis this spring break. Her mom bought her one of those color flip phones. She's trying to buy her, and Heather's buying into it. I don't want to compete with that, because I just shouldn't fucking have to. So, fuck it. If Heather never wants to realize just how good we had it, then all I can say to that is fuck it. She tried telling me that we had so many problems. I was like, what problems, and all she could tell me was we had some trust issues. Big whoop. Of course we'd have trust issues. Her parents got divorced, she's been cheated on, and my parents divorced because my mom was cheating on him, and I've been cheated on myself. So, of course we'd have some trust issues. But, shit, that kinda shit can be fixed. I asked my therapist if that could be fixed, and he looked at me, and said hell yeah.
Anyways, I'm sick of typing, so I'm gonna go to bed. I had a really long day today, and tomorrow's gonna be the same. So, night, and maybe I'll post sometime in the near future!