me...
here is the thing...i get on here and bitch about adam...but honestly i should be bitching about myself. i trust him. he gives me no other reason not to trust him until he fucks up. i am selfish when it comes to him. i dont want him around anybody else but me and that not how things work. i miss him. like more than i think he knows...which could be a good thing. he cares about me, i know that he does. but here is the thing i am not thinking about (because i am selfish) he is vermont for 3 months and michigan for 9. he hates michigan. wouldnt take a rocket scientist to figure that one out...but apparently i am too selfish to realize that. its not like we are breaking up...its definitely a couple of rocky months with some things to work out.
i am truly friend-sick...i dont miss michigan at all...but i dont miss all my friends. its crazy to think that after school i am moving away. i would love to pack them all in a bag and take them with me. but than again i have no idea where i am going after college. i have 2 years to figure it out.
shit, i just thought about something. should i get a new phone? my other phone is rather damaged...it still works but i could get something newer and possible send the old one to adam so that he would have a phone. i dont know, i have to get my truck fixed first. that shouldnt be much...i hope.
well i better do something constructive today. its my day off. one thing that i have realized in the last 24 hours...i dont need to kill myself working this summer. i need to work yes, but i dont need to pull 70 hour weeks. i have to pay my bills, put some money is savings and than have fun. i need to meet people my age out here...the sad thing i am not. damn it. whatever...i will find something to do in my spare time. i am doing a lot of reading lately. weird...never had time for it during the school year. speaking of the school year...this year is going to be fucking crazy. wonderful...
adam, i love you! i miss you tons!
i am truly friend-sick...i dont miss michigan at all...but i dont miss all my friends. its crazy to think that after school i am moving away. i would love to pack them all in a bag and take them with me. but than again i have no idea where i am going after college. i have 2 years to figure it out.
shit, i just thought about something. should i get a new phone? my other phone is rather damaged...it still works but i could get something newer and possible send the old one to adam so that he would have a phone. i dont know, i have to get my truck fixed first. that shouldnt be much...i hope.
well i better do something constructive today. its my day off. one thing that i have realized in the last 24 hours...i dont need to kill myself working this summer. i need to work yes, but i dont need to pull 70 hour weeks. i have to pay my bills, put some money is savings and than have fun. i need to meet people my age out here...the sad thing i am not. damn it. whatever...i will find something to do in my spare time. i am doing a lot of reading lately. weird...never had time for it during the school year. speaking of the school year...this year is going to be fucking crazy. wonderful...
adam, i love you! i miss you tons!