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[nurunner]

in a relationship? or not? that is the true question. i dont care anymore...its not worth me losing sleep over...actually it is and i still do have a terrible time sleeping at night. what the hell am i suppose to do? its a good thing kyle lets me talk to him about it. the sad about this whole thing is that adam swears he is not cheating and has not been with another girl...BUT everybody else that i talk to knows when you use the lines "i need my space" it implies that you are cheating. so why keep secrets? have i ever kept one from him...of course and i am sure if he found out he would be rather angry...but what am i to do...it was my job. whatever, i just thought about this...adam wants his "break" to end when we go back to school...no. not going to happen...so he works 70 hours a week and goes to school...and i guess he still needs his social time. well when school starts...i have to balance being a RA, school organizations, running, homework and working on campus...i just dont see time in there for him. so i guess now i have come to the conclusion and if i ever get the chance to talk to him...i will explain. if we cant work through this summer bullshit than its going to be a break up not just a break...because when school starts i am just going to be under so much stress, i just cant handle having someone else crowding my space. sounds fair to me...

well i have to look into another job...maybe something actually towards my major.

hey folks...i may not be able to call but you can always give me a ring...i will try to answer. i miss all of you back in michigan. i dont miss michigan...but i do miss my friends and family. i know...im a wimp. love you guys!! all of you in the "ass hole of the world" aka michigan.

i love you adam....