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So I've been at my first cna job for over 3 months now, and I'm just still so unsure. With our census right now we generally have 10 patients, usually 1-3 can do most things themselves on a set and the rest are dependent. I still feel like I am neglecting people if I can't get to them right away. I'm still not taking real lunch breaks even though I get docked for them (I don't consider a lunch break just because I forced bites of food in my mouth inbetween feeding two patients, this doesn't always happen, only on one set), so I just don't know. My anxiety is at an all time high, I've even considered putting myself into a hospital as better than going into work, but I need this job and at this point in my life I don't know what else to do. The job market sucks and once in awhile I have great patients who make me enjoy what I do, but the rest of the time they are crazies and they grate on my nerves because since I was working at a rehab place I didn't think I would have to deal with dementia so much, but this place mixes in assisted living with rehab, which makes me feel bad when my dementia patients take me away from the genuine rehab patients that aren't crazy. I just feel like I'm in the wrong field and any advice would be appreciated :(