Ryan
I really dont know why I decided to write about Ryan, I guess it's cuz lately I've realized something and that is that I never really cared about him as much as I thought I did. I do think he can be nice and is fun to hang out with, Jet Sking with him was really fun, but honestly that seems to be the only thing I really miss about him. I dont want to be with him and I'm glad I realized that finally. I do think he is a better person than some people have made him out to be, though he isnt that great either. There were a lot of things that bothered me about him, which I thought I would be able to look past if a serious relationship ever came to be, but I now see that most of those things bother me so much in other guys that make me avoid those guys altogether. I'm bothered by one thing about Ryan though, he once said he cared about me, but then once I started seeing Noel I havent heard from him, which isnt a bad thing, I know that if I did it would be a booty call, which wouldnt be worth it anyway, he wasn't very good, I'm glad I know that now. Imagine how much time I could have spent not knowing what I was missing. I do hope he's doing okay though, I mean I don't want him dead and I don't hate him either. This was just something that was recently on my mind.