Indecisive
It seems that any time I have the urge to write an entry, I seem to have my shoulders sag, exhaling a long sigh of pitious disgust. The question as to why this is still eludes me; some may say for the attention, possibly even craving pity and sympathy for myself. Of that, I can assure you that this is a false statement. The only explanation I can think of, seeing as I don't talk to many people, maybe this is my way to vent. But, back to the point...
Ever since I graduated from high school, I had no clue as to what I wished to do with the remainder of my life. Everyone else had their ideas, opinions and input to share, but none of it really directed me to a path that I desired. Still in college, almost four years after I have left my high school years behind, my mind is still as clouded as even with doubt and indecisiveness. These four years, it feels as though I have only been going around in circles, lost with no indication of where to go next. I'm almost to the point to just...postpone my education, and maybe discover more about my possibilities. Maybe figure out more about myself (yes, I know how cliched that may sound). The hardest part, I suppose, is to know where to start. In time, I will figure it out I hope.
I suppose that's enough complaining for one entry. On the positive side, I have most of my Christmas shopping done (though I don't care for the holiday myself), and I survived the Black Friday that my aunt dragged me to ^^ Also, everything else has been pretty uneventful and ordinary. I suppose that is a plus.
Ever since I graduated from high school, I had no clue as to what I wished to do with the remainder of my life. Everyone else had their ideas, opinions and input to share, but none of it really directed me to a path that I desired. Still in college, almost four years after I have left my high school years behind, my mind is still as clouded as even with doubt and indecisiveness. These four years, it feels as though I have only been going around in circles, lost with no indication of where to go next. I'm almost to the point to just...postpone my education, and maybe discover more about my possibilities. Maybe figure out more about myself (yes, I know how cliched that may sound). The hardest part, I suppose, is to know where to start. In time, I will figure it out I hope.
I suppose that's enough complaining for one entry. On the positive side, I have most of my Christmas shopping done (though I don't care for the holiday myself), and I survived the Black Friday that my aunt dragged me to ^^ Also, everything else has been pretty uneventful and ordinary. I suppose that is a plus.