Three Spider Bites

[nuria_asha]

Monday, October 3rd 2016
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I felt lethargic on Monday morning. I proposed to myself that I needed self-care and spent time taking deep breaths on Hibiscus's balcony and then soaked in the bathtub. Paladin spent time cleaning things that he brought from Snowland.
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That night I felt terribly lonely. Paladin went to bed early, Metheus wasn't still around

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it's not unusual to be

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3 is a good number. Many people though don't know what to do with and about me, and as you said yourself, you too are a little uncertain what it means for and from you. Perhaps, if I may suggest, it is that you were planning that is the sign. Rather than setting your expectations of how it should be, shorter, longer, or stay the same, you are to find out?

I only suggest because being present is always useful, and it is what I've heard.

One thing that caught my attention in the recording is something you seemed to have noticed; that is, that loneliness is something of a scapegoat here. *Arrr* I went to check my notes to see if I had sussed out what I heard it to be and it only states that it was a cover-up. There is somethings about the fear of abandonment, people hating you, and of your anxiety/fear of disappointing people which I did hear in it though. Perhaps when you feel lonely next, try looking to the why, and what is stirring in it?
Just because people can distract or detract from the symptoms doesn't mean that such is that problem. There is a lot more you can do for you, and showing that you are there helping and hearing yourself is a great step, love.