Eeeaaarrrlly...
Basicaly...yesterday sucked...i didnt go to sleep till like...9am and i woke up at 5pm to a dark empty house. It's frustrating as hell to know u missed out on your whole goddamn day! Frome then on i talked to a couple people...played afiew video games...and thats about it. I talked to my friend leanne today who's alwayz so busy working, im suprised she hasn't keeled over yet. She wants to do something next weekend...go to six flags or something. Sounds like a good idea...i dont really get to hang out with my friends much on account of there busy lives and me not having much of one :(. I really really need to get a job. That reminds me, i have an appointment to take my ID picture at the DMV on the 26th...i gotta fill out that paper work...shxt...that also reminds me that i have a hair cut appointment today at...whatever time. The fact that im still fully awake is what upsets me...if i dont go to bed soon, i wont be able to get up in time to go! Hmm...back to leanne...she's been flirting with me an aweful lot lately... i've alwayz had a thing for her, but i never thought she would be interested in me...she still may not be...i dunno, i guess time will tell. Her and jenna...two best and worst things to ever happen to me...best in the sense that they're my best friends and they got me into going out more in high skool and junk. Worst in the sense that...i i started drinking alot more when i started hanging around them and...pretty much fell head over heals for jenna, and developed strong feelings for leanne. First, you tell yourself "oh she's my friend, i just have these feelings because i care for her a great deal as a friend" blah blah...you try to justify your feelings...trying to make sense of them. Then you wake up and smell your own bullshxt one day and realize "man, i really love this girl". You learn from experiance and observation of others though...you learn to keep your feeligns to yourself, because saying something, could mean the end of your friendship...and thats the last thing in the world i want. Regardless of my romantic feelings toward her... she's still my best friend...the only true best friend i've ever had (jenna). She's gotta boyfriend though...mistreats her...but she loves him...so i guess i'll just have to sit back and watch as she gets married...has kids...lives a happy-go-lucky life...without me :/. blah...i just went off talking about pointless crap, sorry about that...guess thats what a journals for anywayz. I better get some sleep. Until next time...peace.