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Romans 1:28-32
"And even as they did not like to retain God in their knowledge, God gave them over to a debased mind, to do those things which are not fitting. Being filled with all unrightesousness, sexual immorality, wickedness, covetousness, maliciousness; full of envy, murder, strife, deceit, evil mindedness; they are whisperers, backbiters, haters of God violent, proud, boasters, inventors of evil things, disobedient to parents, undiscerning, untrusthworthy, unloving, unforgiving, unmerficul; who knowing the righteous judgement of God, that those who practice such things are deserveing of death, not only do the same but also approve of those who practice."
I see these things in me. It breaks my heart. As I continually work to know God and allow myself to be transformed for his glory and purposes...all of my faults are brought into the light...emphasized in a way as they are washed away. Grace takes on new meaning when you push into God and see how horrible you are, and how horrible the world is around you. Too long have I walked the line without choosing a side. I hope I am always remembered as a person who chose God in the hard situations and stuck to that throughout his life.
There is a line in a song by an old band I used to listen to that says something like "I stepped into the light, only to discover my shadow, and now I need more of the light, to drown it out". that always stuck with me as an interesting way of describing sin and how once you truly surrender and began to work daily at living for God in all things...you see how nasty you are and you need more of him....less of you...
Pushing as I have lately has made me feel very alone. Few people seem to want what I want to the degree I want it. Few people see the meaninglessness in what we do and how we act...and that can be as simple as walking past the homeless person in need without evening acknowledging them, or not returning the phone call of a friend because we are too lazy or uninterested.
That's enough for tonight.
"And even as they did not like to retain God in their knowledge, God gave them over to a debased mind, to do those things which are not fitting. Being filled with all unrightesousness, sexual immorality, wickedness, covetousness, maliciousness; full of envy, murder, strife, deceit, evil mindedness; they are whisperers, backbiters, haters of God violent, proud, boasters, inventors of evil things, disobedient to parents, undiscerning, untrusthworthy, unloving, unforgiving, unmerficul; who knowing the righteous judgement of God, that those who practice such things are deserveing of death, not only do the same but also approve of those who practice."
I see these things in me. It breaks my heart. As I continually work to know God and allow myself to be transformed for his glory and purposes...all of my faults are brought into the light...emphasized in a way as they are washed away. Grace takes on new meaning when you push into God and see how horrible you are, and how horrible the world is around you. Too long have I walked the line without choosing a side. I hope I am always remembered as a person who chose God in the hard situations and stuck to that throughout his life.
There is a line in a song by an old band I used to listen to that says something like "I stepped into the light, only to discover my shadow, and now I need more of the light, to drown it out". that always stuck with me as an interesting way of describing sin and how once you truly surrender and began to work daily at living for God in all things...you see how nasty you are and you need more of him....less of you...
Pushing as I have lately has made me feel very alone. Few people seem to want what I want to the degree I want it. Few people see the meaninglessness in what we do and how we act...and that can be as simple as walking past the homeless person in need without evening acknowledging them, or not returning the phone call of a friend because we are too lazy or uninterested.
That's enough for tonight.