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people are so full of shit.
and it cracks me up because ive been told twice since ive moved here that I am full of shit.
apparantly it is impossible to have done as much as ive done by 22. BULLSHIT. everyone down here is just to stuck in their own little bubble to ever have experienced anything. shit, i met a guy that had never been out of missouri. AND KANSAS IS LIKE 15 MINUTES AWAY. youve gotta be kidding me. GRRRR!!!!! i fucking hate everyone. ok. not everyone. but damn near everyone.
i know its just a jealousy issue but i hate saying that. it makes me feel like im saying theres something to be jealous of and thats not how i view my life. ive done alot of cool shit yes, but nothing no one else couldnt have done with alot of effort.
everyone keeps telling me to not stress over what everyone thinks and thats so what im doing right now. dammit. but isnt that the way you get ahead? considering what people think, adapting to it, and using it to your advantage?
this kid i used to smoke with told me one time if he had to describe me in one word it would be "chameleon". and that i was the most adaptive person hed ever seen. like a super agent. that was the first time i ever felt good about that.
i view myself as being caught in between. i dont want to be to punk, to tree-huggerish, to new wave. but im a little but of everything all rolled into one big mess. and i dont think that will ever change. and who the fuck said you cant wear american eagle with a pyramid belt anyways??? gah.
side note: im so sick of men acting like children. maybe the women my age are doing the same thing but i dont hang out with enough to know. GROW UP.
and it cracks me up because ive been told twice since ive moved here that I am full of shit.
apparantly it is impossible to have done as much as ive done by 22. BULLSHIT. everyone down here is just to stuck in their own little bubble to ever have experienced anything. shit, i met a guy that had never been out of missouri. AND KANSAS IS LIKE 15 MINUTES AWAY. youve gotta be kidding me. GRRRR!!!!! i fucking hate everyone. ok. not everyone. but damn near everyone.
i know its just a jealousy issue but i hate saying that. it makes me feel like im saying theres something to be jealous of and thats not how i view my life. ive done alot of cool shit yes, but nothing no one else couldnt have done with alot of effort.
everyone keeps telling me to not stress over what everyone thinks and thats so what im doing right now. dammit. but isnt that the way you get ahead? considering what people think, adapting to it, and using it to your advantage?
this kid i used to smoke with told me one time if he had to describe me in one word it would be "chameleon". and that i was the most adaptive person hed ever seen. like a super agent. that was the first time i ever felt good about that.
i view myself as being caught in between. i dont want to be to punk, to tree-huggerish, to new wave. but im a little but of everything all rolled into one big mess. and i dont think that will ever change. and who the fuck said you cant wear american eagle with a pyramid belt anyways??? gah.
side note: im so sick of men acting like children. maybe the women my age are doing the same thing but i dont hang out with enough to know. GROW UP.