I hate who Ive led myself to be

[nun_whore]

I miss who I used to be
only the people in North Carolina know who I used to be
I hate that person too though
I want parts of who I am and parts of who I used to be to be the me today
last night this woman knocked on the door and was yelling that it was the cops
she sounded like a man
very convincing
I started hyperventalating
an overwhelming sense of doom
thats what everything feels like now
just an overwhelming sense of doom
thats my life
I feel like Ive already failed at my life
Im a nobody
Ive become a nobody
I have to change my state of mind